I'm feeling really hopeless right now and can't really talk to anyone about how I Really feel. I don't want to scare anyone but I just want to give up. This is too hard.

I know, it's hard for everyone and I can't be selfish and do anything, that's why I don't "think" I could do that. I have people who love me, and I don't want to hurt anyone.

What about my pain, what if I can't really make it. I have thought about "it" before and knew I wouldn't do it, but this time is different. I really don't see any hope. I think I just need to just take a day to relax and hopefully tomorrow will be better.

I really do hope it will get better, I can't keep going like this. When I reply to others that are in pain, I have such encouraging words, but can't seem to take my own good advice. I just want to stop crying and hurting so bad.

I've been depressed my whole life and am very familiar with pain, and hopelessness, but this time is very different. I'm older and I'm going through another divorce and just don't want to try anymore.

Uuuugghhh.....hate this pain.