Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
hi I know I haven't messaged you all for awhile. I'm sorry bout that. I had a talk with my boyfriend Friday, about personal stuff. I thought it went well. He said I was wondering when this conversation was going to happen.I saw that as a positive way to end a nice calm conversation......my boyfriend and I.
A friend called me and asked if I was ok after what happened. I knew it had to be about my boyfriend and I. Something he shouldn't have known before me. Because he wouldn't tell me what was supposed to happen. I didn't get a call Christmas day after till I asked if he could call me Wednesday.
We used to try to say I love you first. But I was starting to be the one that initiated I love you. That was giving me the clue too. Because we'd be silly and I loved him for it. I've never loved a man as much I loved him. ( I still love him ).
I texted him Thursday to see if everything is ok, because he wasn't replying to my texts or anything. He said oh I didn't think that we were still dating. I asked him what the f-word what he was talking bout. he said well I needed a woman who is willing to do that. And he said he was done.
he said "so" about a hr later to see if I had changed my mind and I just said " what ". I am so glad now that he didn't choose to be with me on Christmas, instead of his 34 yr old daughter and ex wife. I still love him despite what he's done but I'm not gonna do something that I wouldn't do with a guy that understood where I was coming from.
Supposedly he understood where I was coming from. But I guess not. I spent most of the after noon crying and I wasn't even home. I was at the club we both go to. Luckily he wasn't there. It's gonna be awkward when he is there but I'm not gonna leave if he is there.
I texted my best friend and she said I told you so. then she called me today and told me again I told you so. I really don't need I told you so on my heart that is already broken.
I will be civilized with him but won't talk to him other then to pay for my lunch ( we have a cafe there that serves lunch for a dollar).
I kind of hope I don't go with another guy. But there's always the maybe you know? And I appreciate the hugs (((hugs back))))
A person at the club who knows nothing bout what is going on came over to me and Richard and said awww king Richard and Queen Erin. I shook my head at him to give him the clue that I wasn't Queen Erin.
I'm still not ready to " make good " if that makes sense at all. I feel like a rabbit that see's a hunter and doesn't move in case the hunter see's her.
I told my friend how I felt when she said Told you so, in text and then on phone because I didn't reply. I told her how I felt and then she said what else was I supposed to say. I gave her a list of what she could've said .
A person that I never thought would be compassionate was very compassionate. She invited me to her apartment. I stayed the night with her and her husband and little boy..
We also went to the theatre to watch the new jumangi movie it was great!