Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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mystie 07/14/2008

Why does my depression not give me a break? I've been severly depressed for about 8 months and the last 4 I have had severe anxiety with it.
I can't fucking take it anymore.
I cant believe how depressed and anxious I am. Im not getting any better and Im having suicidal thoughts all the time again, I just want to take all my pills and sleep forever. I just want to end my life of this constant pain.
I feel completely hopeless and helpless, sick and unmotivated.
My pdoc and I are now talking about ECT. I just can't take this anymore. I hate life.

deleted_user 07/14/2008

Maybe ECT isn't such a bad idea. Sometimes, if we're really at the end of our ropes, we find a way, you know? Maybe that's where you are and it will start getting better now.

deleted_user 07/14/2008

Lots of hugs Mystie. I hope things get better. Im glad you reached out to your pdoc and are trying to get help. I hope this will help you.

mystie 07/14/2008

pdoc wants to wait out the Effexor before we try ECT. That is going to be about at least another 13 weeks. I feel like I can't wait anymore. I'm tired of trying.

WanderingVet 07/14/2008

Personally, I think it is a big jump from pharmaceutical therapy and ECT. I don't think 8 months is long enough to have tried all the possibilities of medication. Not a doctor, . but that is just my opinion. ECT's advantage is relatively short, ... and it takes a course of them to be fully treated. When it takes a month or more of the right medication at the right dosage, it could take a lot longer than 8 months to find the right combination. Jumping to ECT seems premature to me.

deleted_user 07/14/2008

check with your doctor of course, but many people get relief from alternative treatments like fish oil, omega 3, soothing teas, and meditation...also positive thinking.

I hope your cloud goes away soon. xx

mystie 07/14/2008

wanderingvet I have been on anti depressants for over 7 years. There seems to be no right combination and with my depression only getting worse ECT is an option.
I'm tired of being this way. The depression has had it's highs and lows over the course of the seven years but the last 8 months or more it has been severe with no end in sight. I've been on more medications than I can keep track of, they don't seem to be helping.

deleted_user 07/14/2008

Have you tried Pristiq yet? This is the antidepressant that I take. I'm not sure if it's what I'll be on for the rest of my life but it has helped to stop crying every day of my life.

mystie 07/14/2008

hi angel
no I haven't tried Pristiq yet but it is in the same family as the Effexor.
May be an option at some point.
thank you

WanderingVet 07/14/2008

Sorry, ... misundestood that aspect of your post. I hope you make the right choice and whatever it may be, that it gives you the relief you so deserve. Good luck.

mystie 07/14/2008

thanks wanderingvet
it's hard to know what choices to make anymore.
It would be nice to not feel so depressed anymore.

mystie 07/15/2008

yet another day of hell.
when does it stop????

Alphonsus 07/15/2008

Maybe it's time to try the ECT. They are talking about giving another round of treatments for my wife. It didn't work for her the first time, but then it's been said to do wonders for some people. If nothing else it will be a change of scenery for a while. Hugs to you.

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