I am 45, I have been disabled for the last 6 years. I have "Intestinal Mal-rotation Presenting in Adult Life". This disorder is caught in babies at a rate of about 1 in 500 births. To live to adult life being undiscovered is .002% of the population. I started waking up in the morning with severe abdominal pain. I went to The Cleveland Clinic and they did a Ladd's procedure, which is the common surgery for this disorder. Here I am 6 years later with no improvement. I have found a probiotic that really cuts down the pain, but very rarely do I have complete pain relief. I'm very depressed, I feel as life has no purpose...I couldn't have kids, I'm divorced, the last few relationships have not ended well. I'm really lonely, I live in a 3200 sq. ft. House with just me In it. I have an 1 1/2 acre lot to take care of and I'm having a hard time keeping up. I usally don't feel lIke doing much anyway! I've lost any pride I have had over the past 6 years! I feel so worthless. I'm miserable in life. To make things worse, I have Pure "O" OCD With suicidal thoughts continuously repeats itself over and over! I have no desire to commit suicide, but I have to admit, I'm miserable enough I think about death alot. I'm just lost, any input would be helpful and much appreciated! Thank you, Sly