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Desperate4life84
Desperate4life84

Up until a few months ago, I was doing great then the abuse from my employer and my needy mom made me spiral. Im in a really depressed state that I just can't shake,  I am in tears trying to figure a way to get out of this black hole and be happy again. 



I have a loving boyfriend and I want us to last.  My negative self talk: your alone, your fat, your ugly, your a failure you are doomed just like your parents . Parents attacking my bf and i. I ask myself was i meant to suffer. I know i have posted on here before but need support again.  I'm afraid to ask for help of fear of losing everyone but if i dont i will lose everyone.  I'm not a nutcase and don't want to appear that way,  just years of countless abuse. Nobody has ever been held accountable.  Or they flip it on me, that it's my fault. 



I ask myself was i doomed to suffer. Was i born to suffer. The things I've heard about me or my family is horrible . I want to have a chance or do I just admit I'm just meant to suffer and be trash, that is alone. Every since my mom on my butt and my abusive employer ive been like this. I want a better life bit i dont know where to start. I hate my weight but no motivation.  Can someone help me get back on  track so I can get better.

SSTUDENTlife
SSTUDENTlife
Your are never meant to suffer! Life is rough sometimes and we all go through patches. I think you should try and eliminate the things that are making you feel unhappy. start looking for another job, quit the one that has an abusive member and try making an effort to surround yourself with good things in life, not the sad or horrible ones :( Try to go out of your way to do what makes you fell happy. TRy to find the good in your life and put some more in it. Maybe you should take a break from your mother and try to focus on other people and not let her actions bug you as much. If she’s someone you can talk to, maybe try telling her how you feel. Either way, surround yourself with things you like doing and that make you feel better. Just a start in the right direction can make you feel better (:
tiredmom1994
tiredmom1994
You are a wonderful creation. You are very valuable. Please if you feel as if you cannot go on any further contact the suicide hotline because you are not alone. They even have a chat line.
Perhaps you could start by finding a new job and perhaps not worrying about what your mom says. I used to get all wrapped up about what my mom says because I wanted her approval. Then one day I realized she is never going to give her approval and eventually I stopped being concerned about her approval. I agree with SSTUDNETlife focus on what is good in your life. Start an I am thankful list. Perhaps the way I did it will help you. I started listing one thing per day for which I am thankful. Then I started listing two things per day. Eventually I found a better perspective on life and was able to move forward. I lost weight, got a new job, and even better hair. You have to take it one step at a time.