Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Audere
Audere

I don't know what to do anymore.


I'm 21 years old; I'm a nursing student; and I have major depression, generalized anxiety disorder, tendency to self-harm (non-suicidal), and eating disorder behaviors. 


On Friday morning, I got very suicidal.  I just wanted to mix Xanax and alcohol and be done with it.  I know I have so much to live for and I have such a beautiful life to live, but my mental illnesses just ruin things.  My happiness has been very much fleeting over this past month--I have been really struggling to get out of bed, I've missed classes, I have insomnia, I cry almost every day, and I forget to eat.  Basically, I am incapable of taking care of myself right now.  I can't think of a specific trigger for this.  My great aunt passed away about the time my depression really cranked itself up, but my aunt and me weren't super close. 


I've been meeting with my therapist every week as I have been for over a year.  I also reached out to my psychiatrist regarding my suicidality on Friday.  I am currently on 100 mg of Zoloft.  He tole me to increase the dose to 150 mg to see if that helps, so I will be starting that tomorrow. 


I am currently trying to study for an exam tomorrow but I just don't care enough and I keep crying.  I already emailed the professor basically saying that I will try my best to make it to class tomorrow, but no guarantees and that I may need to reschedule.  


I am just sad about this whole situation because I've never been so severely depressed for such a long period of time where my interventions seem to not even be helping.  I'll be happy when I'm hanging out with my sister, boyfriend, or friends, but that's easy because I have no responsibilities in that moment.  And I sometimes get really depressed even when I'm just hanging out with them.  This Friday I had a complete meltdown about wanting to die and needing to check myself into a hospital when I was with my boyfriend and nothing bad was happening.  I didn't check myself into a hospital though. 


I have an amazing support system of family and friends, yet I still feel so isolated because no one can fix me. 

Ghostdancer
Ghostdancer
Why reach out here and not to the closer friends and family? Here, yes anonymous but also no help if one does go into a suicidal total harm direction. 911 doesn’t work really well here and oftentimes a post falls through the cracks initially. You’ve got a good support system and toolbox and you’re using part of it but what else do you have? Anything that’s worked in the past to break this pattern you’re in is something to try once or even twice again. Sure sorry you’re going through this difficulty.
Audere
Audere
I reached out here because I was hoping someone could relate to the situation and give advice. I've already reached out to friends and family but no one can solve this, including myself.
Archangel36
Archangel36
Around the end of May I had a complete mental breakdown. I was taken to the emergency department that was in the hospital near me. Same day i ended up in Sheppard Pratt for medicine detox as well as help with memories from my parents abuse that caused my Trauma which then caused my DID and PTSD.
Archangel36
Archangel36
I was only in there for a week and they took very good care of me. They showed how to take care of me and how to utilize my support system that i already had set up but did not know I had.