I rarely post here because I don't have any answers....all I can offer is that I do understand what you are saying, in my case,
instead of hurricanes it get F5 tornados..

I'm sure you will get some postive feedback
to your post b4 too long...folks here, by and large, are very supportive.

Keep reaching out, people do hear you!!!

Wishing you peace...

Hi Need,
Of course, anyone that has gone through an extensive period of depression can relate. In the past when I have been in a deep depression, I related mine as being in a barrel. I would look up and watch the world from my barrel. Although it provided some protection, it was dark and lonely in my barrel.
I hope you are going to a therapist and if not you will seek one. There is no reason to suffer when there are therapist and medication that will turn your world from negative to positive. I learned that not every Therapist is right for you and you need one that you are comfortable with and feel secure. Dont feel obligated to them and find the one that is right for you.
The world of depression is filled with negative thoughts and your comparison of waves tells me you are locked into a pattern of negative thinking and perhaps self-anger. Unresolved anger is also a component of depression. There are so many facets of depression and unless you understand how they work on you and how to overcome and control these facets, you will continue to be in and out of depressions. Believe me, Ive have been there. I have spent most of my adult life in and out of depression and I have been to numerous therapists. Some were excellent, some were not so good and I learned to run from the latter.
One thing that one of the better ones taught me was the use of a journal. It doesnt have to be something elaborate or fancy. It can be as simple as a spiral notebook. However, use the journal to write daily the things that happen to you and your feelings or emotions. Write your entries as if you were writing to yourself (sounds odd, but who else can you be totally honest). Be faithful to your journal and periodically go back and read previous entries. Most likely, you will find patterns to your emotions and thoughts and they could be a key to recovery.
I hope I have given you something to think about or perhaps Ive only stated things that you already knew. In any case, I wish you the best.
CL

Depression is one of the hardest things to deal with. It affects us both physically and emotionally and sometimes we never find out which one it is. It all depends on how knowledgeable our doctors are. The deep depression is the worse. What is more aggravating is when we become depressed and then wake up and feel happy again. No rhyme or reason for any of it, we just happen to be one way or the other. It's like being in the eye of a tornado one minute, and the next, the tide is slowly bring us back to the beach. It's time we figure out what we can do to bring that tide in for good!! Hugs GB

you have just explained my earlier life .....before I got help..and again since ...what put me ware I am now ....you need to let everything out ...everything that has ever hurt you everything you are keeping to your self and it is a burden to you ... It all has to come out for you to heal ...the longer you keep things in the worse it gets the more they can hurt you ...the deeper you can fall ....I don't know if you are seeing a councolour or phicaatrist .....but if not that you should really think about it you can tell them all these things and feel safe at the same ...time ........I don't know if you are on meds or not but I believe you need to be and if you are than they need adjusting .....you need to fight not let it take you away .....years ago I got so bad I stopped talking after crying for a cupel of years non stop ....... I was put in the hospital ware they had to give me ect because I was going down to far to fast ...it was a life saver ....I didn't thing I was ever coming back it was like getting berried alive ......you don't want to go there ...that is ware I learned I needed to talk and so now I talk .....I might of told you this before I can't remember.....if I did I apologies...not that I don't mean what I have said but just for repeating my self and putting you through that .....we are friends....right to me ..I am here for you .talk ..god bless

Yes, I can relate. I have often spoken of my depression like a storm at sea. There are times that I can barely breath and there are times when I am just treading water.

Hope you feel better soon.