Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Depression is kicking my butt

DZI
DZI

One month ago I finally came out of denial about my severe depression. I self mediated with alcohol, which only leads to bizarre behaviors and anger with me.


After 17 days of no alcohol, my depression somewhat lifted, but I realize that I buried it deeper. Yesterday would have been day 18, but I chose to escape and drank on Friday and last night.


I finally see a psychiatrist this week for a med evaluation. 


This is the 2nd time around for me, but it feels way worse than 15 years ago. I did take meds for about 3 years and ended a destructive relationship. After the seperation, I  was doing better so I stopped the meds.


I don't have much of a support network these days. So I found this site online in hopes that it will help.


Depression sucks :-(


39_1_
39_1_
First off I want to say that your not alone in your battles with over-using alcohol. You also have done a great job 17 days thats a good start. I don't know why you have depression but if you ever need someone to talk to i'm here.
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
Welcome to this site. Congratulations on the 17 days of sobriety but sorry for your relapse. I am glad to hear that you are going to see a psychiatrist for possible medication. The doctor may recommend therapy as well. You are not alone and everyone on this site is here for you. If you should want to talk, message me.
DZI
DZI
Thank you for your replies, it took me most of the day to get the crying spells to stop today. I took a walk down some nature trails, but still couldn't shake the sadness. I decided to put on some relaxing music (Enya) and it made my tears flow, Enya's music has never gotten to me like this before.
I let myself cry for a while, then made a mood enhancing broth (bullion and turmeric), it helps but still the sadness lingers.
It's nice to know that I'm not alone and can find support that I do not get at home. I do see a counselor once per week. The first few sessions I left feeling hopeless, because I realized that I had no support. I've reached out to my mother and sister, and a good friend of mine on Facebook that also has a mental illness.