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Depression is consuming me

benji99
benji99

hi I been dealing with a lot of things in my life but now I am in a point of life where I really don't care about anything anymore I do things but i really don't care to do anything. I been having problems at my job where I no longer wanted to be there and it all started when my boyfriend that I been with him for 1 1/2 years he didn't do anything special for my birthday he made the commute to see me the day off but didn't gave me nothing or took me out or anything I feel like the intention ma that counts but he never apologized. Today his friend proposed to his girl on her birthday and it made me super emotional because i see that couples that he tried to make it special and I went on my boyfriends phone and he was posting that I was jealous when I really wasn't I was upset at the fact he didn't even wanted or did anything for my birthday knowing that I never had a good one before am I wrong for feeling like this ?

Gladdmatt
Gladdmatt
Depression, anxiety, fear of abandonment, PTSD, etc. are "old friends of mine" when it comes to relationships. I can experience tremendous anxiety just waiting for an email response or phone call. One thing I have learned is that not all people are raised to have good manners. Sometimes things that I consider extremely hurtful and rude are just the way people are, and they don't mean anything by it. IMHO, perhaps you could talk to your boyfriend to explain how and why you felt hurt? Maybe he did what he did because he's a creep, but maybe he didn't know any better. (Or maybe he was broke?) I hope things go better for you at work. Like the old saying goes, don't cut off your nose to spite your face. Good luck, I'll pray for you.
Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine
Let him know how his actions made you feel and give him a chance to make it up to you.

God Bless
benji99
benji99
I do tell him every time n he's not broke he got a rise at his job n sometimes what counts r the intentions
ConfidenceBuilder
ConfidenceBuilder
Dear benji99, there is nothing ever wrong about our feelings. We love and we share our experiences and we give to others. This is one of the joys of living. Building relationships are what brings joy and pain into our lives and yes the pain does hurt but the joys are so much more rewarding when we know that we have given to others what others never expected to get. I am sorry that you were hurt on your birthday but what about remembering all the joy he has brought into your life. All the good times he has given you. All the good times you have given him as well.
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