i have had it since i was 10. that was when my father passed away and from there things just went to crap. i am currently 27 and fee; the same way you do. some days i think dieing would be better. the dad thing is i was thinking things were better-i mean i had a good weekend and now i just want to runaway. meds work so long and then it is onto a new one. best of luck and if you need to talk i am here.

I know how it feels to be on treatment without results.
Then death comes to our minds as an answer but we shall not give up.
Lets just live day by day or moment by moment.
Looking to our past is not good and projecting ourselves into the future is not good either.
If we stay in the NOW we may get better results.

I have had depression since I was 8 years old as far as I can remember. Thats when my mom and dad got divorced. There are different reasons for depression, clinical, seasonal, chemical and situational. I would imagine yours would be a chemical imbalance. I thought because of a bad upbringing that mine was situational depression and post traumatic stress. But my life is very good now and I have no money or family problems and I am still depressed most the time. The drs say it is chemical and hereditary. I have been on almost all the anti depressents and bipolar drugs that are out there. some seem to help for awhile and then it seems my brain gets use to them and they quit working. I can tell you though that I do not want to die.. I am not going to let this bastard of a disease get to me in that way. I am going to fight it and fight it until I have no fight left.. I hope that never happens..

Depression Forever???!!!
Hell, Yes!
*hands carol a chocolate soda icecream float with a tall spoon and straw sticking out of it*

Thanks so much for your replies. I'm sorry there are so many others having this cruel thing. I'm thinking of not taking any antidepressants. I mean i've gotten lucky a few times and found something that worked but then it stopped working and thats so dissapointing. I tried a small dose of Abilify once and it was wonderful!! But then it stopped working, geez. whats the use in taking anything at all. And my boyfriend says the med make me emotionless and kinda numb feeling. What do you do?

my depression stems from the physical,mental and emotional abuse I went thru in my marriage.All medications were tried nothing has worked so i try each day and deal with mine goodluck~hugs~

Hey carolina-- I am the same as you. Antidepressants only ever make me worse. Nothing seems to help-- I've had depression all my life since the age of 6. I'm 19 now- 13 years is a lifetime to me. Well, it is my lifetime, since I don't have memories before that-- I think I heard 70% of people find antidepressants ineffective, or that they made them even worse.

Depression is often based on a chemical inbalance and not necesarily on your life's experiences. For my depression I was recommended excersize and also make sure u get a litle sun in the morning wich stimulates production of vitamin B. Eating salmon is also very good and I actually feel great the day after I eat it. YOGA is the best for relaxing. Good luck!

i think for me my depression started at a very early age but i know that mine has to do with a chemical imbalance in my head.maybe they just have not put you on the right type of meds. good luck to you