Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I recently began recovery for prescription drug abuse. I've been clean since the 10th. I was also in the hospital for a psychiatric meltdown.on the 12th. Ever since then I've been trying to find fellowship with others like me. Instead I am left wanting. I tried the church but it didn't workout. I want to go to meetings but I don't have transportation and I live in a rural area. Friends will only help so much. Besides I feel like a burden always asking them.
Anyway, my life is highly stressful right now. We're low to no food, no money until the 27th and 29th, I'm depressed and having anxiety attacks. When i left the hospital, I was sent home with no meds for my anxiety. Also, they lowered my anti-depressant. I currently take Effexor 75mg 1 a day, Strattera 100mg 1 a day, Abilify 30mg. 1 a day, & Trileptal 150mg 1 twice a day.
I really don't have anybody to talk to. Most of those whom I do talked to are online. I need face-to-face contact as well. That is part of the reason I want to go to meetings. I also want to find a sponser, and work the steps for recovery. I feel very lonely & depressed. I need to get out of my house. Being with my family 24/7 is stressing me out besides depressing me.
I feel so lost and confused. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know where to find people to be able to make friends, even if I could find a ride. I don't go to bars or use drugs anymore. So I am changing for a better life but I pick the wrong people. How do I find the right people and not the phoneies or players. I can't handle the drama or stress right now. I still feel fragile and I'm afraid I'll end up back in the hospital. I feel like hurting myself and using again. I even looked around my house see if there was anything so that i could use. I tried mutliple coping skills I've learned in therapy but nothing is working. I'm paranoid and afraid to go outside most of the time. When I do go out it is for appointments and I have anxiety attacks. Plus I feel stupid most of the time. I'm feeling some anger with it. Its like grrrr whats the point anymore. I want to cut the mixed feelings and pain and anger out of me.
Sorry for the rambling. Sometimes I can't stay on topic in the middle of an episode. Please help if you understand where I'm coming from.
Anyway, my life is highly stressful right now. We're low to no food, no money until the 27th and 29th, I'm depressed and having anxiety attacks. When i left the hospital, I was sent home with no meds for my anxiety. Also, they lowered my anti-depressant. I currently take Effexor 75mg 1 a day, Strattera 100mg 1 a day, Abilify 30mg. 1 a day, & Trileptal 150mg 1 twice a day.
I really don't have anybody to talk to. Most of those whom I do talked to are online. I need face-to-face contact as well. That is part of the reason I want to go to meetings. I also want to find a sponser, and work the steps for recovery. I feel very lonely & depressed. I need to get out of my house. Being with my family 24/7 is stressing me out besides depressing me.
I feel so lost and confused. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know where to find people to be able to make friends, even if I could find a ride. I don't go to bars or use drugs anymore. So I am changing for a better life but I pick the wrong people. How do I find the right people and not the phoneies or players. I can't handle the drama or stress right now. I still feel fragile and I'm afraid I'll end up back in the hospital. I feel like hurting myself and using again. I even looked around my house see if there was anything so that i could use. I tried mutliple coping skills I've learned in therapy but nothing is working. I'm paranoid and afraid to go outside most of the time. When I do go out it is for appointments and I have anxiety attacks. Plus I feel stupid most of the time. I'm feeling some anger with it. Its like grrrr whats the point anymore. I want to cut the mixed feelings and pain and anger out of me.
Sorry for the rambling. Sometimes I can't stay on topic in the middle of an episode. Please help if you understand where I'm coming from.
Also, try to be patient with yourself. Your meltdown as you put it wasn't very long ago. Give yourself time to heal. It does take time. Good luck.
It takes a lot of work and its freakin harder then hell, I wont kid you... but it will be worth it... Hang in there and listen to what advice you get here.. WElcome to the DS *nuhut*. We have all been there in some way or another... I wish you peace of mind... I quit asking for happiness.... peace of mind seems like a better goal..