Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Ive been feeling lonely and ive been deprssed since March this year. My mom abandoned me and my family that month but even before that my life has been like hell. I have lived knowing so many lies believing them as if they were the truth. My mother abused me and did many things to me since i was little and it barely stopped this last December only because I threatened to call the cops on her. My mom used to verbally abuse me and physically. She would beat me and take her anger out on me for no reason. My mother told me hurtful things that a daughter should never hear coming from her mom. My mom has made my life impossible but ever since she left I hold many responsibilties around my house that no 15 year old should yet hold. My father and all brothers work and I never have time for myself and I don't know how to really keep us with all this and there are times i wish to take my life away but I just don't do it because I cant make my father or brothers suffer like that but sometimes I just get so loenl and I have no one to talk too and I feel as if no one understands me. I feel put aside way too much and I hope one of you on here can be my friend and we can help eachother through rough times like these. I have thought so many times about running away and disappearing and I just I need someone to help me. I can get so angry that i lash out and i cry myself to sleep and even wanna hurt myself. Itend to be so mad and upset i wanna pull my hair.
i say this not to make you feel guilty but to expand your understanding. Whey you say 'no 15 yr old should have to...' I squirm. You have to do what you have to do. There's no "should" about it. There's no such thing as 'should'.
You just have to get through each day. i know it's stressful, frustrating and lonely. And you've also still got to get over mum's behaviour. And you're probably at school, and you're doing this alone.
I put it to you maybe you're not as alone as you feel. Have you talked to your father about this situation? A mother's role in the family is mostly to make others do the work; if you have the mother's role, do you not then have the right to make others work? You need to have that conversation.
If you can't get any joy, then maybe there is an auntie or uncle you can go live with.
Have you talked to the school counsellor about your options?