Hi
Who do you feel is pushing you away? I feel that way sometimes too. I would be happy to talk to you any time. Send me a pm or just reply. Depression is tough and going to bed and shutting the world out is very tempting. Mamie

I feel that way a lot too. so tired got to go to bed now or id write more.

Going to bed and not waking up (in a very long time) is actually a good thing. Do sleep, for days on end if you can manage it! It will be therapeutic.
I can tell you for a fact that we're not pushing you away here. We don't know your story, but I can tell you I massively screwed up my marriage and the guilt is eating away my soul... sorry for the exaggeration, what I mean is: I am not judging you, I was the husband most people on this forum are complaining about. So if that's your case, I'm completely with you and most certainly not pushing you to go anywhere =)
Tell us as much as you feel like telling us. We know nothing about your story and once we do we won't think it defines you. What you do from now on will define you, every day a little better, every day a little closer to yourself.
You can do some things right: you were extremely lucid when you wrote that opening message in this post. So let's take it from there once you're awake again =)

Well Mamie, I feel as though everyone expeciaaly on FB push me away because i migt say something they dont like or i sent a picture they dont approve of sso they get down my back. PPl around here dont understand me and they wont take out any of there time To find any way to help me.

Me too Wendy. Im tired all the time and theres nothing to get up for.

Im awake Vic, Sometimes you try all you can but your marriage is bad anyways, You cant help it. It certainly isnt your fault. That was my marriage, My husband was phyiscally and mentally abusive but i stayed as long as i could hold on. It was doomed from the start. I dont blame him or me. I moved in with my 88 year old mother to care for her. She makes my life a living hell. Biut i stay.

Why do you stay with your mother if things are so awful? Can she go to nursing home, assisted living? Have you talked to department of aging, social service, church, to see if you can get help. If she can't go to nursing home or assisted living? You need time to yourself for your sanity.

Hello. I understand it can feel lonely when you think people don't understand you. Why do you think people are pushing you away? Is there someone you can talk to about what's really bothering you? Praying for you.

I try to talk to my psyciatrist and my therapist, but i trust them as far as i can throw them, The only ppl i really talk to are my friends here. Youse help me very much. PPl push me away for no reason that i can figure out, They might just see im different from them and i scare them. I tried talking to a few of them but they say im crazy and to get out of there. PPl are sure weird.

I think most of us in this support group have felt like you are feeling at some point in their life. I believe that people in this group will not judge you by what you say. We are all hear to listen and share with one another. Most people can help by sharing what they have experienced. Keep sharing with us. I was also thinking that if you are not happy with your therapist, have you considered changing to someone else. Sometimes the therapist and the patient just don't click with one another. It is really important that you trust your therapist and feel that you can share anything with them..

Yes im trying to change now. But i cant get into see the new doc untill May 26. Ive tried this one twice. But i just dont like or trust her. Ive had different therapist but with a trust issue like mine i dont talk very freely around them. I feel very relaxed and safe here. Youse are oh so wonderful to me! Nobody pushes me away here.

I feel the same way. Right now I'm crying about a friend that doesn't want to talk to me. I don't know if we'll ever talk again. It hurts so bad. I'm so shy, sensitive and awkward, and it pushes people away even though I'm a nice person.

Kathy1234 - Today I felt like just ending it all today too, but I've been there before...survived and I will survive again. I have mental challenges and right now my sister is in a state of mania. You may want to get off Facebook and write in a journal instead. People can't judge what they don't see or know.

Closer, ive tried and tried to make friendships with ppl i know like my hair dresser. A guy who worked on my moms house etc. I say to heck with them they arent worth our tears.We have found this wonderful place where were talked to. care about us, listen to our problems and help us. etc. I would enjoy being a friend too.

but, i really dont have that much to say. I guess i just want friends to accept me. Everyone here is my friend, They listen to my problem and try to help me with it, Just chatting with one of them really makes sense. Handpicked, It such a wonderful place for support . I dont have quite as bad feelings as i had. Thanks for the idea. I really dont know what you write in a journal? Who do you ever show it too.