I woke up this morning feeling very down and stressed out. I am trapped in a horrific family situation. I just cannot get myself out of it. I don't know who to contact to get help with my mother. My therapist and doctor are awful and will not help when i have brought this up. Mom is physically and mentally unable to take care of herself. I am so tired from working and my own health problems that I don't even have time to deal with this. I feel like I have acid inside me all the time. My family is so dysfunctional and abusive towards me. The more I learn about it and what is actually going on in my family and how negative it is for me, the worse it makes it for me because i am learning more and more about how selfish and awful they are and have been towards me and that I was this do gooding fool who didn't see it and now i am so deep into it i can't get out. I don't want to sacrifice my mom but it has come to that to save myself. i thought i could handle this but i can't. it's not fair to me either, even if i could handle it. I think my mother is a covert narcissist also which i didn't realized until recently and that really freaks me out too. becoming aware and more enlightened really has a down side. you can lose your whole family. i feel so effing ill. i have to go to the store now and buy stuff for me and her. she is completely financially destitute and she is pulling me into financial and emotional ruin also while at the same time taking no responsibility for it. just like my sister, really. it's sickening to me. i feel totally alone and i'm stuck, i know i always say the same sh-t. i'm like a broken record. sometimes you are just too down and tired and low to pull yourself out when you have all these forces working against you. my family is not willing to meet me half way or even a quarter of the way. they would instead rather sacrifice me than grow up and take responsibility. what do you do about that?