Idk what to do with myself anymore. I've been praying for strength everyday. I cant escape my thoughts of suicide. I dont feel like I will act on it now but at times the thoughts get wayyyy too serious where I cry. I am severly depressed ive been off my meds for a little while, I called today to start therapy and meds again. Things are just getting worse in my life by the day. Tbh the only reason I contemplate suicide is to escape the struggles and the terrible thoughts. I am a homeless, single parent. The other parent and I have no contact for reasons I dont understand. They just dissapeared out of our lives in a negative way. Im pretty sure its a new relationship which is hard to think about since they moved on extremely fast. Left us (me and baby) to be in another relationship then abandoned us. I was living with a family member but couldnt get along so they put me and baby out. Been trying to get into a shelter but that is taking a while. I've lost a lot of weight in the past couple months smallest ive been in my adult life. I havent been eating much just a few snacks throughout the day. I have no one but the person whos been letting us sleep on the floor for a few nights. My baby has been making me want to fight and continue my life, other times I dont care enough and think about us just dying to stop the pain. Like I said I dont plan on doing any harm to us. But mentally I cant stop thinking about it. I keep crying about my life and it sucks.