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Littlefeather
Littlefeather

In the last year I have had several attacks of kidney stones.  Now one is lodged in a bad place, and if it doesn't pass they have to do surgery.  The surgery is painful post op, and I can't take pain meds very well.  I am so depressed and anxious I've gone from 114 to 108.  Then my dog died on me, and in my arms on the way to the ER.  They think she threw a clot.  Then I adopted a dog, and they didn't disclose it had major seizures and that dog died of its' seizures.  SO then I get a puppy, and the dog has been howling incessently for ten days.  I'm sending it back to the breeder.  So now I'm a pariah for having two dogs that didn't work out.  I can't and won't adopt again even if I could, and I refuse to buy another puppy.  My quality of life is none.  My bladder dropped down into my private area.  I am a freaking mess and I wish I were anyone but me.

Ninja_Tonks
Ninja_Tonks
I am so sorry you have to go through this :( Do they know why you keep getting kidney stones? It's terrible to have to lose a pet at a time like this, too. I'm so, so sorry.

The puppies are a strange coincidence. I often think when a lot of bad things happen all at once, the Universe is trying to tell you something. I'm not faulting you in any way! But things pile up on us... energetically... and come out as a sort of catastrophe. Is there something you've been ignoring or putting off? Much love!
AnnieToman
AnnieToman
i could trade stories with you but thats beside the point. i just have to say is get the surgery done, as painful as it is, it wont feel as bad as the harm waiting creates and then still having to go thru it anyway. sorry to hear about your incredibly bad luck with adapting a dog. just know that the odds are in your favor now of succeeding . just to be safe make sure you find a better adaption place, secondly make sure the puppy is ready to leave its mother, and siblings
doncornelius
doncornelius
Same here. I have a list of ailments, lost 3 dogs in one year. I had a breakdown in February and I’m still here. I won’t say it gets better or worse cause I’m up and down myself. All I know is I keep on going. You can too. One day it will all be over and you’ll be back to yourself.
Littlefeather
Littlefeather
I can't think of anything I've ignored at all. I have been open to any Universal messages or instructions. I am not sure the Universe would get my attention by tormenting me or making me ill enough for surgery either. That would be pretty sadistic. Sometimes there is no rhyme or reason, things just happen. I think we tend to use psychology or what I call psychobabble when we can't figure out why. What I will say, is that the first clue is if it shames, blames, or harms someone in any way, it's a problem. I recently wrote a scathing article on Louise Hay and her particular brand of stupidity. https://wordpress.com/post/robinannehannon.wordpress.com/345
Littlefeather
Littlefeather
Sorry that url for what I wrote is here:
https://robinannehannon.wordpress.com/2018/07/26/you-can-heal-your-life-totally-outrageous/
Littlefeather
Littlefeather
Don I'm so sorry good grief, three dogs in one year! I have just about had a breakdown, but I'm trying to recover and rest enough so that won't happen. Life is never easy.
jstar845
jstar845
Hello, Thanks for posting. I extend my condolences for your beloved dogs. I am also sorry to hear about the kidney stones. I admire your strength. I see you have being seeing a doctor. Continue to seek medical advice from your doctor. Also, get a good support system. I'll keep you in my prayers. Best wishes!