There's so much going on in your life...no wonder you feel overwhelmed.

I think maybe a good place to start would be to see your doctor and talk to him about how you're feeling. Are you taking any medication for depression?

You can change all of this, but it will require you to keep your mind focused on the long-range picture, and to work hard at it.

Sounds like your brother is dilusional to say the least.

You are loveable and worthy. You must shed extra life weight. Find a way out of there. You can do better on your own than in the current situation. Keep looking. You will find a way. You must take a few large steps toward a better life. It awaits you .. you just have to make the trip.

You will probably never collect the debt from your brother. He sounds seriously ill and not responsible.
You can do this. Make a careful plan, and execute it. It is only a few steps to a better life.

You don't have to die to be closer to God. All you need to do is pray to him and let him know that you need him. Sometimes when I am hurting I can actually feel him hug me.
I think your brothers hoarding is making your depression worse. Do you rent? Do you have enough money to get a place for yourself until he gets help? Maybe you need to call Social Services and see if you can take control of him over. We did this when my mother almost drank herself to death. She was a threat to herself so we got granted temporary custody od her. If you could do that you could have him checked into a hospital to start recieving help? My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hang in there.

I do rent. I wish hope and pray I could find someone Like me who needs to move out of their living situation to begin the process of getting better. I sleep as much as I can because my dream life is so much better than my real life. My real life is Hell on earth. Without help I will die if I can`t move out of this hell hole and get away from my hoarder pschizo conspiracy obsessed brother. I hardly eat. I have not showered in 2 weeks. I`m basically laying in bed till I`m dead

I slept from thursday till saturday. I had so many dreams it was better than the hell I woke up to. I want to sleep and dream as much as possible. I think my prayers to GOD are being blocked by the micowaves 3g 4g and satelite signals. I think I need to go to church so my prayers can be amplified by the power of faith in numbers.Then again God may be on vaction.

i think both you AND your brother are delusional. There are no such thing as 3g or 4g microwaves and even though I am an atheist; satellite signals should not be able to block prayers to a god.
3g and 4g are technologies NOT signals.

BtW, if you don't work, he owes you money for back rent/bills, you rent and you claim to have no one, how do you manage to live? eat? pay any bills? I am just curious...

I get social security disability for bi-polar,DVT, degenerative disc disease and other physical disabilities. I meant 3 to 4 gigahertz signals. I just assumed 3g and 4g was the frequency that these networks use. But I`m probably wrong cause a 3ghz phone would not work on a 4ghz network. It would be like getting channel 2 on channel 7. And as far as microwaves surround the earth and blocking are prayers from God was only a theory like E=MC2. Which by the way Einstein and Nikola Tesla both gave credit to God for there theorys which advanced mankind 1000years of technology in 100 years. If it was`t for God we would still be using candles and cooking over a wood fire.

If someone tells you that they love you and they don`t help you when you really need help then love just becomes just another 4 letter word. Since my mom and dad died all I have is brothers and sister. I need help cleaning my trailor because I`m severely depressed and it is totally overwhelming. My remaining family says they love me but actions are stronger than words.Thank God I`m not an atheist because I know God loves me. I also know Jesus Christ my lord and personal savior loves me. Thats why I can`t commit suicide. I don`t want to spend an eternity in Hell!!!

You really need to see a doctor and get a plan in place. Don't be afraid to ask for help at your church, I'm sure they would be more than willing to give you hand.

Good luck to you, you are in my prayers

I`ve already spent 5 days in a mental hospital. The pdoc they stuck me with almost killed me 2 years ago with a double dose of geodon 180mg at once. Twice the maximum dose. The mental hospital eent me by ambulance to the regular hospital. The Geodon gave me a mild heart attactk with arithmea. It took 6 liters of saline to cleanse. my system of Geodon. Going back to this year I also did 2 weeks of partial in patient. My family doctor subscribes my meds. I`ve been seeing him for 10 years and I trust him. I want to find a hospital in metro Detroit that still lets there patients smoke. 5 days without a cigarette drove me crazy.

is there a hospital that will let you smoke? there has to be a way to work around this. i know it's hard to get out of bed now, but maybe you should try to start throwing things away in ur trailor, give urself some breathing room.

has ur brother ever been in an instition or group home? can you call social services in your area and ask to talk to a social worker. then tell him or her about your brother. if you put in some effort, eventually something will happen about your living situation. good luck. i'm glad you have your faith to keep you hopeful or at least wanting to go to heaven.

My doctor is my family doctor. He can precribe the same medication as some Dr. from India and usually these forigien doctorsgive me meds that made me so sick I was hospitalized for 4 days. I did 5 says in Henery Ford Speciality Hospital. A nice way of saying the loony bin..I did 2 weeks in partial patient, I feel just as bad as the 5month of no medication. It could take another year or 2 to find the right combination of meds. Currently I have no pdoc,therapist or social worker. I guess I can call independent hospital around Detroit where I can smoke.. Thats why my stay in the last hospital did`t work for me. If I can`t smoke I have no incentive to get out of bed before noon. So I miss 3 groups from breakfast to lunch. The groups are the only thing that helps when your hospitalized Basically you get your meds and watch TV the rest of the day. Thats what I do at take my meds and watch TV every day. I can smoke at home.

I feel the same way you do. I sit here waiting for my child to call me. It never happens. Havent seen in 10 weeks . seen 14 hrs total all year. I dont want to keep going. Im trying just really want to give up.

I`m in so much pain from depression I am ready 2 walk 2 miles to the nearest bus stop to go to Detroit where I can hook up with my old prostitute friends so I can smoke some crack just to feel what intense pleasure feels like again. If I really want to die I`ll go from crack to heroin.