Today, I feel defeated. Like I should just never try for anything good in my life. Before today, it felt like my life was going to actually start going somewhere. Everything is going alright with cleaning out my friend's things from her house. I mean it is not perfect, but it is getting somewhere. We are scheduled to get a dumpster delivered at the end of the week to really get rid of the garbage and the things that her family doesn't want. And of course today has to happen. While it is not unusual that my husband calls me at work, it is unusual that he calls and is freaking out. He tells me that the car broke down, won't move or go anywhere broken down, and he is not at home. Luckily, he is on a road into the neighborhood close to our son's friends' house, but he has the baby with him. Before now, I have been mostly calm about moving, and having to figure out everything, now I just kind of feel like freaking out. Everything just feels like it is weighing me down. Even if I could claw my way out from under one thing, it feels like everywhere I turn is yet another issue to try and deal with. Home, moving, replacing things, having a summer visit, and now on top of it all, car, soon it will probably food (no car, not easy to go grocery shopping)

I feel like going home after work, setting up the tv in my room and just curling into a ball, but not even that is going to work since I don't have anywhere to set it up at. Can't even take care of the cat at our moving into home. And I don't have any phone numbers to be able to call the neighbor and let him know what is going on. Can't/don't want to try and depend on anyone to give us a ride over to the new house. It will take almost an hour to walk to the new house one way, and too cold to try and take children there. 

Overall, I know that in the end I will be fine, but currently I just feel defeated and stuck.