i feel like im at the bottom of a deep dark pit. i dont know how to get out of it. ive pretty much collapsed and even the smallest things set me shaking or crying. i hate my life so much. the endless monotoney of working so i can afford to live another crap day. ive been in hospital for 8 days and i dont know how im going to go back to work on monday. i couldnt even handle my nieces 1st birthday party today. was pretty much mute the whole time and cried a couple of times too. im a school teacher, i cant be like this on monday.im just not coping an im not getting better. this has been going on for well over a year and im not getting better. as soon as i try to work or do anything i just end up collapsing again. i thought i was getting better for a bit there but really i was just in denial and didnt see the fall coming. what can i do with myself?
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