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Trichster724
Trichster724

I want to die. Everyday I feel like I don't want to be here. But at the same time I don't feel like putting the effort into killing myself. I feel so stuck in my life and I hate feeling like this. Therapy doesn't work (been going for 5+ years now) and I've tried so many different medications. I have zero motivation anymore.

Ghostdancer
Ghostdancer
I know I should do this myself but have you tried writing a journal. I see it works for some people on DS and does sound like a logical safe way to vent feelings. Hope and blessings for you.
Trichster724
Trichster724
I've tried journaling but my hand is actually broken and in a cast right now so its hard to type let alone write.
I don't find comfort in writing. If anything it makes me more depressed going back and reading everything that I wrote down.
djchurn
djchurn
I feel the same way now and often. It helps knowing that I am not the only one. Loneliness is what make me think like this. I go to the library frequently and find that reading gives me motivation in giving me something to look forward to. I read newspapers that I could not afford and it is often bad news but being active in life helps cure me of isolation that brings on thought of suicide.

Hope this helps and keep on posting here, it helps.
Sac555
Sac555
Get out and do something you enjoy, a restaurant, a park, a movie, eat popcorn. Go to church, ask a friend that seems to like hers and ask to go with her. It's so important to get moving around and not sit and think and worry. Is there somewhere you can volunteer? It always seems to help when you help someone else and see that so many people have lives that need encouraging.. I hope you do go do something for yourself/and others...it may help you alot! Praying...
Trichster724
Trichster724
I wish I had the time and energy to volunteer. I'm working two jobs just to make ends meet right now. My only free time is after 5 pm on weekdays, after working a 10 hour shift, and then weekend mornings that I wanna keep open for some me time.
I'm just happy today is finally Friday which means tomorrow I can sleep in.
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
If you have had the same therapist for five years and they are not helping you, you might consider trying another one. Sometimes it is necessary to try more than one until you find the one who works best with you and who you feel is helping you. Try to stay positive and when you do have time, do things that you enjoy. Get together with a friend and have lunch or dinner and/or shopping. Finds things that could get you out of the house. Take a painting class, a cooking class, join a gym or do whatever you think you would enjoy and make new friends.