I can totally relate. That's the depths of depression at it's worst. You should try to talk to a therapist and maybe get on meds if you aren't already. I hope you feel better soon.

It feels like this weight that can't be moved. I'm currently on meds but they don't seem to be working very well. Wondering if they have made it worse somehow. Thank you for the kind words, it really means a lot.

Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk. I've been through really difficult times. It's definitely a struggle that ultimately makes us stronger.

Glad to know I'm not alone in this. Thanks for the invitation

I'm right there with you. I can't even leave the house anymore. I see so that needs to be done and no desire to do it.

I can relate to you, I have been on medication for many years. It has never really helped me. Also I can't motivate myself, even to have a bath. Zoe, I've hardly left my home in many years. I think there are good therapies available if can push yourself to do it. It's too late for me.

I like my safety far too much.
Don't get like me.

Caroline you keep yourself in this state daily by the belief that it's too late.

We're all enchained by our own ideas. We need to realise we're just brains in vats. The reality we create is the one we get. Make the one you want. After being raised by a realist I have become relativist. reality is 100% subjective and who can stop me from believing it?

Nobody. Nobody can stop me at all. I CREATE the world I live in.

So work out what reality you want, and go get it. You're writing this novel you're in. You're creating your own future.

Yes, I can relate to these thoughts and feelings. The depths of despair. We are unique, and I love that aspect of being a human. I also love what bridgie101 wrote. Wow! I needed to read that! So many times I've been told to face reality, as if it's a one dimension aspect to life. It hurts to tell myself I'm okay, that I'm good enough. It even makes me feel guilty to reveal this truth. Why do I always let my faults outweigh the strengths in my life? I suppose that's the epitome of self hatred. Not sure because it seems so harsh. Okay, that was kinda a bummer.
But.... there is hope. I cling to my inner child to support and guide me. In other words I find a place in my heart where I'm not so hard on myself. I try to take my own advice, you know, what I would tell someone else to do. I'm very good at that! lol. Really just kidding! But there are buckets of truth in that revelation. Giving advice is so easy to do, but oh so hard to take.
When all thoughts are horrendous ones, how about we just hang in there? Sit on our hands, so to speak. Give our thoughts and feelings a chance to settle. Give ourselves time. And, if possible, learn to love ourselves.
Now ... chin up! You are worthy.

@barely, I definitely know what it's like to feel as if you are barely holding on. One of the things I discovered about depression in my own dark journey is that depression can be chemical, or emotional, psychological and spiritual. If it's the latter, then meds can definitely make things worse. You shared that you think the meds seems to make things worse. Then I would definitely focus on a more therapeutic approach. Meaning therapy with a psychologist or other forms of support groups that encourages you to talk things out. Meds can help with the chemical side effects of depression but they fall short in getting to the root cause if our depression is stemming from emotional and psychological issues. Keep sharing with us on here. Talking about your struggles has it's own therapeutic benefits.