Good question am always lost when someone asks what do you do for a living uhmm being me?
Well I too feel like I’ve lost myself somewhere.
I know what I used to be but now am so lost in my states of depression/anxiety etc.
I guess it’s the new me but not sure what that is yet? All I know is I’m a work in progress....

You are different now. What made you before is now passed away and you need to find what now defines Julia. Just as my old life is over yours is too. Be must redefine ourselves.

Who am i? I am a fighter. A survivor. A mother. A wife. A crafter. A teachers aid. An interventionist. I wear many titles of who i am. I dont let one single aspect of my life define who i am.
Right now i have hung up the teachers aid and interventionist hats. So i am not currently those but someday i hope to have my dream job back. and i will wear those hats again.

Invisiblefriend......that was a good comment for me thank you. I am not me anymore. There is no me left,
Froggie you actually answered the question. Cool and thank you.
I am not one thing either.......I was a lot of things. Life is a a lot easier when you have mother in your title. I used to be able to be a fighter and a survivor when I had to for my child. Curious what is an interventionist? I can never get my hats back no matter what I do.

My question was more of who are you when all your titles are gone. At your core what makes you worthy.....worthwhile .....what gives you the strength to get out of bed in the morning. Please nothing religious though.

We all change in time in looks and moods but deep down we are the same persons, we just get older and maybe put some wright on but we are that same person the only thing that's changes is YOU ARE A BETTER PERSON.

An interventioinist is a teacher that takes small groups of struggling students and provides target specific lessons to help them learn. The students were testing below their grade level peers. The interventions are put in place to prevent a student from needing to repeat a grade.
(If covid never leaves. And if we dont get a secretary of education that is going to help public schools then i will never get those hats back.)

I feel this. I feel like I'm always defining myself by everyone else or by things in my life that happened. I'm the girl who had a baby at 16. I'm my parents daughter. I'm the girl who lost her sister. I'm a wife. I'm a mother of three kids. I clean houses for a living.
And I feel like sometimes I just stay super busy so I don't have to think about it, about anything, too deeply.

With my multiple illnesses I have been attacked with has indeed altered me. I feel like who I am has died and I'll never get him back.

Constant pain, deep depression and being on so many meds that make me dizzy and drowsy has totally messed with my mood, speech and concentration. Many deaths of loved ones & friends plus stressors from people has left me feeling lonely,betrayed & broken.

I do know your pain for it shreds my heart. I wish I had the answer to a remedy for our states of mind so people like us no longer dread each day the sun comes up & the yet another nightmare begins to live out another day.