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meganK08 01/04/2013

Im feeling awful inside because of some health issues and I know I can get through them just a few more days. I went to my doctor he was able to help me with the pain. All he did was poke on my stomach where I pointed I didn't want him to poke and I burst into tears. He quickly gave me a shot of toradol and sent me home to rest. So this is me resting I was unable to sleep last night. I may need to go back to a specialist in Phoenix to have surgery and that scares me. Just getting to that point with my pain I thought I was doing better. I was going back to school over the internet and working with the kids in school I love them so much. We play candyland. Its the highlight of my day. Im just feeling like Ive reached that giving up point with my pain and I don't have strength to get through it like I normally do. Im emotionally worn out. Ive tried putting on my best face for my family for so long without telling them Im hurting again but its truly awful. I went through this and pain meds for two years and when I went off it was by far the worst point of my life. I was so far down I went into the hospital. Now I don't want my family to think Im going to go down that road again but I don't want to be in pain either.

I just keep thinking a few more days and maybe if I can get there have surgery and be pain free again for at least a while. The last time I had it done with the botox and everything it lasted for 3 years. I was so happy afterwards. JUst think happy thoughts

deleted_user 01/04/2013

that sounds awfull that you are in so much pain hun i really do hope you feel better soon, if you want to talk about anything just send me a message hun

stay strong

Analena x

ZAZAS 01/04/2013

You had one of those botox shots? I have had that before for my back. For me, it did nothing at all for my pain, but my pain was in my back and nothing seems to ever help that or my legs. I am sorry you are in such pain. Please tell your family, maybe you can go get another botox shot and be ok until surgery time. I am sure your family does not want you to suffer. Please take care of it before you do end up in the hospital.

Dixe4me 01/04/2013

Sorry your in so
Much pain. I understand as I live in
Pain daily. I hope the surgery helps and you feel better soon.
((((Hugs))))

meganK08 01/04/2013

I just wish I knew how to talk to them about this without them thinking that I was going to end up back in the hospital. I ended up in the hospital because I was stupid and no one ever told me you cant take pain medicine for two years then suddenly wake up one day and decide your not going to take it anymore. Best and worst decision I made. Best because I got off of them worst because well lets face it coming off is never easy especially with chronic pain.

I had botox injections 6 of them in my pelvic floor for endometriosis and it helped for a while but like I said it musthave worn off because I was in the drs crying yesterday and he wants me to get it taken out. Its been three years since my last lap. Im just tired my family is tired of hearing me say im in pain and their is really no way to fix it. My husband is a paramedic he fixes things he says it makes him feel helpless to watch me in pain. We talked about a hysterectomy but I am still to young. Ive just been feeling helpless since last night because I don't know how to deal with this. What do you do when your in pain

deleted_user 01/04/2013

They wanted me to have one too when I was in my 20's and I finally had it done when I was 35 and I don't regret a minute without it.

meganK08 01/04/2013

That's what Im told its the best decision you can make the pain stays down afterwards. Im only 27 though and I guess that is why Im so depressed this morning. I just want the pain to stop not stop for a little while. Ive already had 1 miscarriage and was told that I cannot have children. It breaks my heart but my aunt was told the same thing and right before her hysterectomy she had her little "miracle". It was an oops LOL.

ihavenoname 01/04/2013

*squeezes you tightly* dw its gonna be ok we shall all help you through it xxx

Kuno78 01/04/2013

I also have dealt with endometriosis. Not sure if you have had surgery yet for it, but it is really quick and not that bad at all. Much of it is outpatient and done through laparoscopy where they only make two really small incisions. I had one of the incisions ache for a while like a tugging feeling but it wasn't that painful, just a short lived nusance. Just be sure to take off for a week for bed rest.

Summerwind81 01/04/2013

Very, very sorry that you're in so much pain...it must be so hard to deal with that on top of depression...wish I had some knowledge or insight but I don't, just wanted to offer the gentlest of hugs and wishes for healing

meganK08 01/04/2013

How should I best tell my family that I am going through this again

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