When one does not know what one is doing, it may be a good course of action to do nothing. Give yourself a pause. Yes, the head noise is unendurable. Yes, there seems to be no point. I GET that.

I have been there. I failed a suicide attempt a time or two. You may not wish to make a botch of it.

Why not wait? things always change. Change is not such a bad thing; especially when you are at the bottom, and there is no where to go but up!

I'll be glad to sit with you through this. I will not say a word more unless you care to hear it. Whaddya say?

What you said makes a LOT of sense but i cant get out of my head everything is driving me crazy i have been thinking about it a while i attempted 2 weeks ago and failed i dont know how to carry on anymore i dont think i can

You said at the end of your post that "You don't even know why you are here and don't know what you are doing anymore". May I give my opinion? I think you are crying out, as loud as you can, that you need help and you just don't know how or where to get it anymore. I have said this so many times but I need to say it again. I have thought about suicide more times then I choose to count, but fortunately, I always keep those feelings as thoughts, and nothing more. At least for now, I have been able to do that. I am not going to sit here and write to you about all the people you are going to hurt, or how wrong it is because you have heard it all before, and already know it all. What matters is helping you to find your self worth. That is what the devil does to us (depression) he makes us feel really good one day and then stomps on us the next. What has helped me the most, not always, but most, is getting angry at the devil, instead of letting him stomp on my heart. You are not screwed up, you are depressed, there is a big difference. I know you can make it through the night, we are here. There is usually always someone on the board because our time zones are all so different. Please do whatever it takes to keep the devil off of your shoulder and that may be a therapist or medication. I don't know what is best for you, I just want to throw things out there for you to think about. and to make sure you always know that you are not alone!

Call friend, relative or hotline. Even if you're not able to discuss how you're feeling to a friend, it may be the distraction you need for some temporary relief.

Don't forget that emergency room personnel are trained to help people like us too.

I am on meds but they dont seem to be helping at the moment i really wish i could cry or something i have all these feelings bottled up but i cant cry or scream or shout or anything all i can think about is ways to end it all i cant cope at all with anything anymore

I hate calling hotlines but i think i might have to

I hate hotlines too, but they've helped me in the past.

One thing is for sure. WE don't do any of this alone. There are hands reaching back when you reach out. Many of us who respond to your cry have been where you are now, and we had the help we reached for. You do too. There are some wise words here about keeping the thoughts separate from the feelings. You may not think you can go on another step, and you may not know what to do. But your body knows to breathe. Your heart knows to beat. Your life is so valuable that it is sort of built in! So just keep in touch. You are better than you think you are right now, and what comes to pass does not stay. This is what I say. And shared pain is lessened pain. Keep sharing!!!

You are a person with feelings, emotions and thoughts that are not you, but how depression works. Like all have said, you are not alone. I am here for you anytime if you would like to pmsg me.

when I get this way, I think of one person that I care about and think how they would feel if I followed through with it. how they would hurt, I know that you really do not want to hurt that one person so very much. then I try to think of why I care about them, and that helps me take my mind off my troubles.

I have been in the hospital 3 times for attempts, right now I am thankful that someone was watching out for me. I have a pretty good life, a man that cares for me deeply and 2 spoiled dogs that are like my kids.

Make it trough the night, then make an appointment to see a therapist in the morning. things will get better and there are people out there that care for you.... I care and I am willing to listen to you and give my advise. here is some ((((HUGS))))) I hope you feel better soon

Please call a hotline or whoever you need to so you can get some help before it's too late! I feel suicidal quite often,but I try to think it through,and realize I really do want to live! It would end up being a permanent solution to a temporary problem,so try to get the help you need in any way you have to!

It is morning here, I hope you made it through the night and are alright. Please get some professional help. We can help here but sometimes a person just needs more help than we can give. Please seek that out.

Thank you everyone for all your support and advice well its afternoon now still not feeling much better i just got a call from my gp my blood results are back and my potassium levels are low because i am not eating i am going back to docs on monday so will try and get some help