Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
can't handle the strain anymore. psychopathic sister is pushing me over the edge. there is no way to deal with her except cut her off but i can't because of my mom. everything is going wrong. my family are all monsters. they are destroying my life. i can't get away from them. no one understands me. i can't sleep anymore because i am so angry. i can't find anyone outside my family other than online to talk to who cares about me. i can't stop eating because it's the only thing that calms me down and it's making me sick and fatter and fatter. i don't want to kill myself, can't really. i'm stuck in a torture chamber. one person understands me in the real world and i asked if i could talk to him and he said no. i was up until 2am last night, probably will be again. everything is falling apart. i hate my family so much. they are all such sick fucks.
Life is hard, there are no arguments for that...And it seems that sometimes family members are the worst because they feel some security in being family. However, you can make the choice to move out of the relationships that pull you down so much. You can decide how your life will go and put boundaries on those other relationships that get you so down. i don't know why you can't get away, but you can start figuring that out. If it's money you need, then start working on that now. Just taking steps in the right direction will help you feel better! Get involved by volunteering somewhere you like, or go to church and reach out for help. Everyone has their own set of troubles and we all need each other to care! Take a few baby steps in that direction...you will feel better! And as far as eating, just be sure you have some quick grab bites that aren't as bad as some food items! I made a "deal" with myself to have to eat an apple first and then i could eat something else. It did help me cut down on so much of the bad food. Also, know you are worthy and blessed! God doesn't make mistakes! There is a plan for you, so get out of your situation and start taking a few steps...Hang in there, prayers for you to feel some peace...