I know how you feel, life seems so hopeless but you have to hold onto hope, I think I should go to hospital, I think you should do the same, I do believe it can get better, life has made us feel hopeless but we can get through it.
Please stay strong.

I have been in hospital before it made things even worse if that's possible I became psychotic in there and had to stay in for months at least now I have pretty much my sanity back I just can't go on tho, I hope things work out for you, take care

Hospitals can be so draining, nothing but the same surroundings day in and day out. Is there an out-patient program some where where you go part of the day, and then spend the rest of the day as you normally do? That may change things a bit.

Keep looking, the courage to live is inside all of us. And keep talking to us, we understand your feelings pretty good here. But we don't have all the answers.

Gentle hugs

Thanks for the kind words folks much appreciated

You can never give up because then you won't have the chance of meeting amazing people like these on this site. Even when I get very down I try to remember that every day I struggle I become more compassionate for others. Being depressed gives you a unique position to help others and understand people in bad situations. Ending your life is the one certain way to never have it improved and also never helping others who struggle just as you do.

I've been writing in the journal on here and venting there as well, it's helped a lot. Just knowing someone may find what I have to say is important. Maybe you should try putting your feelings down in the journal, it helps me. It's very important to get things out there and writing helps your brain discover new things.

Never forget you are an amazing person. I may never meet you but I want you to be happy and no matter what I always will.

I HAVENT ANYTHING 2 SAY ABOUT HOSPITALS OTHER THAN THE FOOD WAS GREAT.
I DIDNT HAVE 2 COOK.............................
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SENDING HUGS YOUR WAY.......................
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it taks courage to live with ..depreshion ....I belive ..in here are some of the most courageous people I have ever knowen ...do you even know how strong you have to be to live with this ......I do ..I have suffered from depreshion all my life ..been in hospital ...had ect ...because I was going dowen to far to fast .....ware I am at now is as good as it is going to get for me ...and I will never give up the fight ....maby I am to stuben for my owen good ...I think it would be to easey to ..just give us sometimes ...and than sometimes I have felt like you .......but the thing is you never know what is coming to you in your future if I had given up any ware ..along the way ..I would of mised so much .......I think you schould go and get all the help you can get ...if you are on meds than get them adjusted ....if you have not talked ....than ...talk ..to a counclour or phicitrist ...everything that has ever hurt you has to come out of you ......and belive me they have heard everything ..........that is a lession I learned the hard way ...let me tell you now I talk ......I will keep you in my prayers ....this rant was good good to get it out .........needed to be expressed .....but needs to be fought ..if I can ever help ..just mesage me ......take very good care of your self ..be kind to your self .....God bless .....I hope that I have said nothing to ..hurt or upset you because that is not my intention ....I know what it is to not want to be here ..I dident want to be here untill I was 50 .....so just imagian what I would of mised ..if I would of given up ...right now I am enjoying watching my grandchildren grow up and seeing the world through there eyes ......

Thanks for your kind words folks I guess I was just having a particularly bad day and just had to get out of my head what I was thinking, I'm feeling a lot more positive today, yesterday I saw a cat being knocked down and the driver drove on, I stopped my car and along with another lady who stopped we took the cat to the vet, sadly it passed away by the time we reached the vet but it gave me some sort of feeling I did good I can't really explain but it kinda restored my hope I guess that I'm a decent good person who tried to save the poor wee thing. I can't get the thought out my mind of the poor thing just lying there but I guess he's at peace now and he's sorta helped me aswell, does this even make sense? Anyway I'm thinking positive today so thanks again folks maybe I should post on here my positive days aswell because they defo are there, cheers people.

very happy you are feeling more positive ..better .....you actualy make a lot of sence ....you can be sure he is a peace ....and looking over you .......take care ...God bless