Hi Wendy, are you still on? Did you find someone to talk to? I am available, if you need.

thank you. yes i'm on. I want to cry but I can't. it's just too much for me right now. I just ate like a cube of butter. i feel so trapped and anxious. my family is so awful. being triggered like crazy here in the house i grew up in.

I sent you a message, Wendy. Take care and message me any time.

my brother and father physically abused me and i have to deal with them and sister is worse.. manipulative cold. enjoys torturing and hurting me and then there's my mom who is super nice and who is my best friend but i feel unappreciated and i feel like this huge weight of caring for her and transporting her back to my place 500 miles a way is all on me and it is and i have the least money of her three kids as well as my job is a stake now and nobody seems to care. my siblings are just like "great, let her deal with it" if i don't, they won't and i do love my mom more than anything.....

Sounds like you are going through a lot! That's terrible that your siblings do not care enough to help you and your mother out. Are you going to be leaving soon with your mother to get back to your job? Does your mother want to leave?

Yes, it has been a very hard decision but my mom and i are planning to go back to my place so i can deal with my job and pack up my stuff and move back here if that's what we decide to do. a lot is up in the air. i am mainly worried about her and that is what is making me so on edge. my mom doesn't really want to leave but she is willing to, she doesn't want me to lose my job. my siblings have always been sort of cold esp. my sister. normally i don't have much to do with them but this has thrown us all together in a way. just waay over stressed and needed to talk a little bit to let off steam. in the middle of all this my sister went to Hawaii on a month long vacation because she said she needed more natural light than she was getting where she lives. she's spending hundreds of dollars on the trip when my mom and me barely have enough food at this point. do you think i should be so bothered by my siblings reaction to my mom's recent stroke? i guess they have a right to do what they want but i feel it is unfair to me since we are all in the same family.

Being bothered by your siblings reaction is normal. Life is unfair a lot of times. You just have to get. advice and help from outside your family.