Enjoy the time you have together while your boyfriend is home. You should not think that others are better than you. You are an important worthy person. He has chosen to be with you and returned home to you. When he is away. you might consider talking with a therapist to help you cope better. Stay busy. It will give you less time to worry about negative things that could happen.

If your boyfriend didn't find you beautiful then he wouldn't be with you! Remember that. You deserve love just as anybody else. It seems like you have an inner battle of less self-esteem and fear to work through. Get out more and do fun things. Focus on a hobby and focus on bettering yourself to the person that you want to be. I've been with my husband since 2012 and he his military so I do spend a lot of time alone. We do a lot of long distance. Bootcamp is one thing but traveling with a military man to new locations where you know no one and then him deploying is a whole nother experience. I'm sending love, strength and positivity your way! I felt the way that you were feeling before... HUGS

He is doing a very good thing by serving. This will also set you guys up in the future for great benefits. You have to love yourself and understand that he loves you and would do anything for you. This gives you great time to focus on you and your future. It is very good to get back into school or if a university is too much look into a trade school.

I went to ABC and in a year I got my certification as a vet assistant because I wasn't ready for school school yet. Now I have my certification and I have the confidence to start my major. Little step still get you moving in the right direction and you can go at your pace!

Hang in there lady! You got this and he isn't going anywhere except into the future he is planning with you! Get beside your man and support a healthy relationship that will last as long as you work for it.

It is hard to get up motivation to do something when you are depressed and stressed. For me.. it sounds stupid i know.. but i setup a specific time for the next day.. ok from 10-11 when i wake up i'm going to watch shadowhunters.. then from 11-11:30 i'm going to fill out the application.. then 11:30-12:30 catchup on roswell ( i know i am behind in my tv ).. then lunch.. and whatever.. at 2pm i'm going to take another 30 minutes on the application..

I know it's dumb.. but if you do it.. you get it done.. now for me.. it's not making applications.. it's dealing with "stressors" in my life like contacting contractors to fix my house.. and calling dr's about test results i DONT want the answers to..

but start by finishing up ONE application tomorrow.. work from there.. College is a great step towards learning about YOURSELF.. meeting new friends.. experiencing new things.. and just getting a little much needed structure in your life.. if you have to start out by just taking one or two classes at community college while you get your applications together..