You need to be sharing this with a professional.
It does get better.
You are not responsible if he harms himself that's his business.
Take care of yourself forget everyone else. Concentrate on you. The past is over, refuse to think about it. The. Future won't always be bleak that's the depression talking.
Talk it out with someone that can help sort it out.

Hi,
I am sad that you are having these restless issues. And it is typical to have a clouded mind and heavy heart during such trying times. What contributes to the difficult times is that you have just gone overboard with emotions, which makes it difficult to see the better answers to your problems. Whats good about what you say is that you are speaking out of a very true place which is that of disappointment and hopelessness with people and how you respond to strong problems.

The quickest path to your self-recovery is to introduce you to a wise self within. You know, it is that little voice that brings us back to a balanced emotional state, where you feel more relaxed, content, self-confident and complete. If you stay within self-pity and grief, you will stay very unbalanced and will not develop lasting coping skills.

It appears that you already understand the underlying cause of your problems, so make things interesting for yourself by making a list of those things and start thinking about the opposite, which is what is acceptable for you in order to survive and have peace and joy as you live. Obviously, you cannot fix everyone elses problems while you are working on your own, so dont be tempted to try and do what others say is right for them; work on yourself and your very own important needs, because you have value and deserve to have a good, long, healthy life ahead of you. When others come to you with bothersome problems, speak with a new and different voice. Tell them what you feel is right for you and stand firmly by your convictions. Learn to operate honestly and openly with them. If you give them your power it will only cause things to appear worse. So, do what makes you feel good and happier no matter what others feel.

I know that this is a lot for you to think about, but it really is time for a changeover to a safer attitude as you face those difficult and trying moments. I hope the best for you!

I am sorry that things are so difficult for you right now.
You say you are in hospital being treated for your eating disorder, do you have a counsellor or therapist that you talk to? I think that you need to share these thoughts with someone professional.
At the end of the day you have to focus on YOU. Only you can change your life. You are not responsible for the choices that your ex makes, you are not responsible for there actions, you are responsible for you and for your actions
Talk to the people who can help.
Turn off your phone
Concentrate on healing yourself

I hope you feel better soon
*monkey hugs*
x

I agree that you need to get help for yourself and focus on YOU right now and not worry about everyone else. Yes that can be easier said than done. I am having a hard time tonight taking care of myself too as I am feeling very anxious about an event this weekend. But we can only change ourselves. We can't change other people. I often wish we COULD change other people but that just isn't how it works.

I can assure you that suicide is not the answer. If the relationship is truly over than you should probably completely cut this ex out at this point if they're threatening to kill themself. Only they can fix themself and there's nothing you can do to help with that. If you did anything wrong in the relationship than acknowledge it, apologize and just explain that it's over and that there's nothing more you can do.

When I'm avoiding stalkers I usually just turn the phone on mute and find a good program to get into which is probably your only option in the hopspital. Check the phone on an hourly basis or whatever works for you but try not to let it bring you down. Just do what you can and then move on.

Cut the phone off and work on you. As others have stated, you are not responsible for his actions. He will need to get his own help, But right now, you need to take care of you.

Hi im sorry you are haveing such a rough time. You have lots of things going on. Please talk to the professionals about how your feeling. Or someone you trust. As for your ex. You really dont need his threats now or any time. He is resonsible for himself. And own actions. Not you. The main thing you can do is look after yourself. You will start to see the light at the end of the tunnel. but first you need to get rid of the hangers on. And concentrate on you. Just you. Baby steps. ((hugs))

you need to put you first , your in the hospital and have to get your self better . That said , stop the boyfriend by showing a nurse that you trust , the messages . give her his name and address and they will deal with him . And as someone said in a previous reply , clear your head by organizing all the mush in your head on paper , make a list . Go back to the top and look at each thing , if it involves other peoples problems mark it out . If not then write next to it what your willing to accept instead of that problem .Then leave it and don't think about anything on the paper . go back to it in the morning and look at one issue and try and come up with a solution .
Let those taking care of you know what the deal is and how your coping and let them help you .