Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
i've been very down recently. well, i usually am but i think it's worse. i am having trouble moving around, doing anything, getting dressed, taking a bath, brushing teeth, etc. i dread going out of the house or seeing any people. i just want to hang out in front of the computer or lay in bed. i don't feel well. very tired. i've also lost my motivation to do anything. really. i'm scared i won't be able to force myself to go to work. and if i do have to go out to get food or whatever, i am very very tired and it feels awful and is extrememly irratitating. i feel slightly more revved up after forced activity but it doesn't last for long. by the next morning i don't want to do anything but stay in and rest. sunlight feels awful on me. i want to be dormant. like a bear hibernating or something. i actually think i need this physically and mentally, a long rest, but my world is not set up like that.
i have many many responsibilities just to survive and i'm scared i'm not going to be able to keep forcing myself to do it. it's like asking someone to do something that is way too hard for them, like if someone came up to you and said you need to do 200 push ups in one day. well, yea, maybe you could do it but it would be really hard and what's the point. that's not a good example but you know what i mean. i'm scared that i feel this way. i can usually push my self and push myself to the point of dropping and now i just don't want to bother. i have lost my motivation and my energy in a big way. yea, i am not thrilled about my life and my job and all that but i can usually force myself through it. i think i might be sick. i'm not sure.
I want you to know you're not alone. I feel just like you do every few days or so. My mood is more elevated lately, but I can sense the sadness approaching. One thing that sometimes works for me is to just take it one hour at a time. What works for me is to take a nap when I start feeling down. But it only helps for a tiny bit. Are you on meds or seeing a therapist? I am doing both, and it has helped, but I still have super dark days in which I lie on the floor by a window and look up at the clouds and cry...and cry... and cry. Anyway, even though we don't know each other, I want you to know you are not alone. I am down, too, most of the time. We can get through this.