Depression Support Group
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What do you do when your world comes crashing down on you at one time, and you feel like you can't breathe? I'm having a severe anxiety attack. Out of nowhere, my mood has shifted into some bottomless pit of despair. My finances are a hot mess, and I have completely depleted my reserved funds while I'm in a transitional period (being laid off & doing some small side jobs). I think I may have gotten 4 hours of sleep at best, and I've been up thinking non-stop about my life & my next steps. I'm looking at a laundry list of things to do, and normally, when I'm calm, I handle my list one thing at a time, but now, everything is overwhelming. I don't know how I'm going to get out of this abyss right now. I'm seriously in the red. There is NO help!!! I feel all alone. I've been crying since about 8am trying to figure out what is about to happen to me & how I'm going to pull through this. I know I always come out, but for some strange reason, I don't think I'm going to come out of this storm in one piece, if at all. I had to return back to the hospital because my blood pressure was out of control, and I had an anxiety attack when the doctor said they had to start an IV. I wasn't sure if they were going to keep me overnight again because it was like 186/117 with a severe migraine. So, I walked out, but realized that wasn't the answer & returned back to the ER. They gave me Ativan for my anxiety attack & started the IV with my migraine cocktail (the doctors call it that).
Today just seems to have gotten started on the wrong note & I don't know how to get back on track. I feel lost. I feel hurt. I feel confused. I just want things to be better like right NOW. I want my heart to stop racing. I want my thoughts, my rational thoughts to find me immediately. I want this emptiness to go away. I just want to stop crying. Where is the help? Who is going to fix this mess of a life I have? Nobody, but me. Oh well. Just venting! I'm so frustrated. I think I'm going to take a drive & hopefully that might clear my mind because right now, I'm looking at these bills, this empty refrigerator, this empty house, and a laundry list of things that need my IMMEDIATE ATTENTION.
Today just seems to have gotten started on the wrong note & I don't know how to get back on track. I feel lost. I feel hurt. I feel confused. I just want things to be better like right NOW. I want my heart to stop racing. I want my thoughts, my rational thoughts to find me immediately. I want this emptiness to go away. I just want to stop crying. Where is the help? Who is going to fix this mess of a life I have? Nobody, but me. Oh well. Just venting! I'm so frustrated. I think I'm going to take a drive & hopefully that might clear my mind because right now, I'm looking at these bills, this empty refrigerator, this empty house, and a laundry list of things that need my IMMEDIATE ATTENTION.
At 51 I have lost everything I have worked for as well.
Insomnia with worry and panic is all I have left...how will I keep my house...etc. Just bought a cheap bag of chips to have with my tuna.
It sucks. I know it is important for depressed people to TAKE their medication I they are on it. I'm going to take mine today.
You said something insightful....it has always worked out in the past.
It will if we believe it will. If we allow ourselves to be taken down we will. Priorities with the bills....rent first...then electricity.
Being laid off you can collect unemployement correct? I know it is a small chunk of change compared to working full time with benefits. Keep taking the next step...the only thing that needs your immediate attention right now...is for you to keep your head high...and take one step at a time. Taking a ride in the car was a GREAT first step.
Despair is horrible....powerlessness is horrible. I also know there is nothing anyone can really do or say to make you feel better and that you just needed to vent. So, I hope others come along and support you as well....it is a very lonely feeling. I GET IT.
I don't generally have anxiety issues, but I do break down from time to time. I always come out of it, things work out somehow. Don't give up on yourself, you're going to find a way. Big hugs.
I know you might hear it off everyone and you probably already know but this will get better. Sometimes I will go on youtube and watch inspirational videos. Or listen to some calming music. My favorite right now is "Celtic harp music". It's like mystical music, really powerful.
Anyway, I'm probably not help you but I am listening. I have nothing now, It was my own fault but I'm going to take each day as it comes and try my best if and when I can. I see my goal and I'm going for it!
Stay Strong!!