Have been feeling more and more depressed the past several days. Feeling physically unwell for months(won't go into detail) and still don't know what's going on. Had lab work, etc, cardiologist sent me for stress test to make sure it was not another blocked artery..... PCP recommmended an endocrinologist but can't get in to see one until the beginning of March!! As I've said before I'm so damn frustrated because most days I don't feel up to doing anything or going anywhere. Don't get to see friends very often, especially since I moved last summer. Feel more isolated. Feel like my whole personality has changed. I used to be bubbly and outgoing and I'm not anymore.
Yes, I have a therapist I see on a regular basis, with calls inbetween if needed. Hadn't been on antidepressants in over a year; for a while didn't need them but went yesterday for new prescription. Will be starting Paxil today. Hope it works because I can't stand feeling like this anymore. I'm limited as to what I can take. Was on Prozac for years and did great until it stopped working, as well as the same with Celexa. Tried other meds, including Zoloft and Effexor which didn't work. Wellbutrin gave me really bad side effects. Can't do any of the newer drugs because of cost(I'm on Medicare) and because of potential interactions with other prescriptions I'm on.
I've been crying off and on the last few days because I'm just so tired and tired of feeling so lousy. I want to be able to get out and do things, go places, but most days just can't. I just can't take this anymore!!!! No, I'm not presently suicidal. I don't remember the last time I was happy......
There is going to be another blood moon on sunday. I feel a little scared because we have had many blood moons and the sun had blackened. Are we in the end times? Is Jesus coming back to earth? I am worried about the suffering that will be brought onto the Nations such as war famine and economical collapse.