Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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ck80211 09/27/2015

I can't stop feeling depressed.I pushed away my ex girlfriend, because.well honestly I don't know why. I got upset at being ripped apart over my past mistakes. I should have done so many things differently. I never knew i was bipolar until I had a breakdown. I never thought it would happen to me, that I was stronger. I caused a lot of it by lying. I just wanted my life with her, things 6 months ago started getting better, and then in days my life fell apart, and she turned her back on me.I've apologized repeatedly and made every effort to change. She'll never know, because she'll never see me again. it does not stop me from being depressed, and I'm calling my psychiatrist tomorrow.I don't need my ex to fix me...I just wanted her to not give up. I wanted her to see the effort and changes I've made...that won't happen.
I can't stop feeling how I do. I have horrible guilt.
I can't sleep very well. I have nothing. No family no one to lean on. I'm so lonely.this is not the life I wanted for myself.I'm trying to focus on good things...but I don't know what that is anymore.
I have to eat crap forever. I lost the woman I thought was my soul mate even though I messed up. I just wanted to.be loved and wanted. I've spent my life alone, growing up in foster care.
I don't know why I'm here...maybe to vent.
It's not like this will get read anyway.

squarel787878 09/28/2015

I just wrote about 50 pages trying to explain myself to father of child and his mother. Although they have mentalmproblems too people never understand other people. Basically when you have that episode there is nothing you can do to avoid problems than later when you try fix it people eo not understand you even if they themselves have exact same behavior. I do not have any advice for you. Basically I think everyone with sudh issues suffer that way. I basically removed facebook acdount all together because I feel people see me as strange. All I can say about your girlfriend and generlly about people who hook up with us they should been looking with whom they hook up. If they die not like what they seen they shoukd not hook up. I do not feel guilty and I do not think you shoukd blame yourself too much. I done my best to be my best. That is all I can do.

sbnj 09/28/2015

dude, having your heart broken is a worse feeling than just about anything else imaginable. Can't eat, sleep or function normally at all. Obviously if you suffer from depression these feelings are going to totally rock you to the core. I found that nothing but time can help with this pain. I feel for you.....I really do.

bridgie101 09/28/2015

You don't need a psychiatrist to fix this, you need time and silence.

You have to experience the pain.

When you have experienced the pain you will be in a position to have an opinion about it. But until you have, you can't be accurate about what took place, or whose fault what was.

this is the beginning of your adult life. This is what makes you: this loss. It's a formative experience. I think everyone should go through it because it teaches us that we are NOT irreplaceable, we are NOT the centre of the universe, people can take us or leave us and so we have to watch what we do.

But also; it teaches us that they were less committed to us than we were to them. We assumed permanence. That was a mistake. We thought every day started fresh. They were chocking up our crimes. We were complaining when they were unfair; they were passive/aggressively chalking our sins on their betting card to gazump us with when they had a full hand of aces.

So who is the bad guy? Well, go through the pain, and you'll find out. But you don't need a psychiatrist for this. It's not a psychiatric disorder. It's grief.

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