Hey! I too battle depression---and am suicidal---PLEASE don not harm yourself! Call 1-800-sui-cide
Also---please PM me---I'm here for you!

Why do you think you feel this way? Its mostly due to not having anything to do.

Look for a job. Try not to give yourself the comfort of having all day to think about your troubles.

I don't know what you're going through right now, but please don't hurt yourself. Call the suicide hotline (I think they'll text with you if you'd rather, too!) or call 911 if you feel you need immediate help!

Also, what other people think does not matter in the slightest- your health and safety are much more important than the judgmental thoughts of strangers. If a medication could help you not have to feel this way, there is absolutely no shame in that. And it would be entirely up to you whether you shared that information with anyone else or not anyway, so at least don't rule out the idea completely!

Please don't give up,
I am undergoing the same thoughts. Very suicidal... It's one life we have.. And we have to battle it.
I am under tremendous physical & emotional pain & agony over the years.
Just hanging on.
Plz never judge yourself,&put your self down.
Give a damn to people.
What I have learnt is, there is a situation and it's up to us how we react.
Hope you feel better.

Please don't give up. I'm the same way refuse to take any medication. More because I want to be in control of me and I feel like medication takes that away. So if you want to be in control - that's fine; but don't let what other people think dictate what you do to help yourself.

I read fantasy novels - they help take me out this world and free of pain.

I understand you not wanting to take medication- it is a personal choice you need to make with your doctor. I have a couple of questions:
1. How will people find out whether you are taking medication?
2. Will they think you are more crazy than you are feeling now?
3. Is other people’s opinion more important than staying alive?
4. Are you open to other treatments, like therapy, alternative medicines, acupuncture, yoga, etc?

Don’t give up! This is a battle, but there is hope.

I totally agree with mommy3333

I hope you are ok. Try to talk with someone. You are important and you do not need to hurt like this. Please just tell folks around you. No need to worry about what they think of you.

Please reach out for help. Your well being is ten thousand times more important than what other people may think. Besides, you have no idea what others are going through and what if your getting help inspires someone else to do the same. If there is one thing I have learned in my years, it's that feelings don't last. They may feel mighty powerful for a little bit but ultimately they go away. You are more powerful than they are. Try and find things that take your mind off those thoughts, journal, listen to music, draw, take the dog for a walk. Also, you can call Focus on the Family for a free counseling consultation 855.382.5433. Hugs