I have begun to feel am overwhelming sense of lack of motivation for everything in my life. It seems like I am simply running on auto-pilot and basically run through the motions of daily life. I am a personal trainer and used to be very fit working out at least 5 times a week for 1-2 hours a session but after suffering two "freak" injuries in my shoulder and ankle I have not been able to work out the same for a year now. I am not fat but I no longer am in as good shape and the fact that I have to start over to achieve what already had taken almost three years to achieve is killing me. The lack of motivation I have is absurd to me at times but I can't find anything to push me forward. I posted here previously about 6 months ago about struggles over all in my life and since then have been dropped from my university. I have gotten into another school and have straight A's but I feel it does nothing for me, I truly get no pleasure from it. My professors commend my work and say that it is a pleasure reading my papers but I feel despite my recent accolades I am putting minimal effort into everything I do. I go about my days thinking about death constantly but ultimately know I will know I won't commit suicide because I know I would sadden many people. I have people who am I close to who support the things I do, and am currently working on three promising business with others. I often reflect on my short life and realize I have accomplished a lot and have a lot to live for. I even have an award given out in dedication to my self since i was 18 and despite all that I have no satisfaction or true happiness regarding any of that. I feel like I have everything I have ever wanted clothes, shoes, electronics, a car and yet after having gotten it all I feel empty. I used to do fairly well with women but it has even been almost 5 months since I even tried hitting on girls and almost 2 year since I felt I had a "crush" on someone, as it all just feels pointless to me. I am in sum a well educated, for the most part successful 21 year old with a lot of promise in life but feel mentally dead. The world seems so bleak and the values I see upheld by many seem pointless. The overall structure of our world seems like it is made for us to suffer. If anyone has ever gone through this or can simply offer words of encouragement that could could help motivate me or see the world in a different light I would sincerely appreciate it.