Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hi,
It's been a while since I've been here. I am in probably the blackest dark hole I've ever been in. You know how some alcoholics say that they are functioning ? I am DEF a functioning depressed woman. I put a happy face on during the work week but when I am alone and that is 90% of the time. I do nothing but cry. I do eat 3 meals a day but the sleeping is kicking my butt. The lack of sleep that is. I am not on any meds and don't want to be. I do have bursts of energy sometimes that result in me punching myself in the midsection. I figure that is a safe place to hit since nobody will be able to see any bruises. I really don't want to graduate to cutting myself.
Can anyone relate to what I am going thru? I have no man, no kids, no pets. I am just alone. I have a loving family but I've been keeping to myself. My misery does NOT want company.
Which probably needed doing. I do feel I'm much more sound and I am much more solid on this side of the nervous breakdown than I was on the other side. Like a nation after an earthquake: the ground is more stable even though nobody ever knew it wasn't, before.
and crying? do it! There's nothing wrong with it. You've got three swimming pools of tears to get out of you, you may as well let them out. Once they're out, that's it.
No more.
This is the thing. It's finite. You've had some kind of jam in your life and not done your crying. so it's sitting there, waiting for you. It's great that you're alone, because you don't want to be doing that in public do you.
So here you are, in the perfect situation (alone) to do the thing your body requires, which is cry it all out. You're doing well. You're in the perfect spot.
You might have another year of this, or maybe only six months. But it's going to be over when it's over and not a minute before. So you may as well roll with it. :)
And take up one hobby. Quilting? Rollerblading? Fencing? Just the one. :) Always be learning something at any time in your life. It keeps you on solid ground.