Writing about it, helps for me. I have never been good at talking to people about how I feel, but give me a notebook and a pen, or giving me a journal entry, or an open forum, and I can really open up and talk about what is hurting me, and bothering me.

Reaching out here helps, over the years, in my darkest of times, I was able to reach out to my friends here on DS, and on another site that I go on daily, and write/talk to my friends there, they help.

Don't give up, keep reaching out to us here on DS. Write in your jorunal, go for a run/jog, just never give up, we will be here to help you as much as we can, and know that you are not alone!

Major hugs coming your way! xxx

It's not your time is one reason. And if you really wanted to end it all, which is absolutely the end with no coming back, you would not be calling out for help and God knows we want to be here to help you. Please pmessage me when you can. I would like to talk to you and hopefully help you to see how much you are needed, how much you are loved, and help you however I can. I"m so glad you made that call. Even if it didn't solve everything, it's a start. We care about you so much and want and need you here honey. Hugs GB

>>If a person is very unhappy with life why is it wrong to put a stop to it anyway?

Because there are thousands of ways to attain happeness .. unless you are dead.

happiness.

I am in a better place right now sorry for this post.

Please, NEVER feel you have to apologize for making a post. Venting can be very helpful!

I am very happy to here you are in a better place right now ...I take that to mean you are feeling better ....and never be sorry for riting how you feel in here at any time ...that's .what this place is for ................my h is planing to go to the trap camp tomorow ....and I realy crach and burn as you put it ....when he is gone and I am alone ....I just can't be alone ....I can't xplained it ....can't explain how I crach so hard ..when he goes ......but I have found that if I get one of my grandchildren to come over ...or if I go and stay at one of my children's ....I do much better ....no crashing so long as I ..leave very shortly after he leaves .............................eather to pick up a grandchild ...teanager ...or ....go to my sons .......I just can't do alone ..............................so you need to get all the help you can get .....I have ...a phicatrist ....and am on meds .....if you are on meds than your meds need adjusting .....one thing we all need is to talk ....this is very important .....everything that has ever hurt you just has to come out ....if you want to begin to heal ........you never know what is comming around the corner .....I did not want to be here .....untill I turned 50 .....I would of mised so much if I would of given up ........I live one day at a time ....and tomorow is always a new day ..a new start ....I always try to notice the beauty around me ..the positive things ....from the smallest things ..up ...and bring positive energies into me ..into my heart .....my soul ..........if you have people around you that are very toxic to you ...than you might need to limit the time you spend with them if any at all ...you need to love what you can in them ....axcept them for who they are ..because you can't change ...anyone ...and fix things ...if they don't want it .....and than ....don't let them bring you dowen .........you need to look after your self very good ......let the past ..fall back into the past ware it belongs ......you can't chang it ..so no regrets ....the past is gone ....and you don't know what is comming ....so live in the ..presant the moment ....I will keep you in my prayers ...God bless

Thanks guys I still feel good right now. Usually by this time of night I start to go down and felt it trying to take hold but thought my way out of it.
Thank You and God Bless