Hi,
I know I'm repeating myself...sorry...I think one of the harder things about this breakup is that we know the same ppl, and I will be probably seeing him again, which might be mildly traumatic! I feel bad being the one who took him off my facebook, and got angry in a huff. I just didn't feel like I knew what else to do. And, most weekends and times I am busy, but I get that hole in my heart occasionally, when I am out, and I can't be present where I am...and this weekend, I was home alone, not a plan all weekend. It was nice to rest, but I can't help but feel like...it's my fault I am home alone...because I was a mean rejecting brat and I wouldn't be alone now if I wasn't...I sort of want to die of guilt and crawl in a hole for being the one that cut it off cold turkey. I feel like he is the one with the energetic and peppy personality still out there having a great old time being a social butterfly, sought after, and I am the bratty wet blanket.