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Breaking..

Angel93
Angel93

Im crying as i write this... I was going to post yesterday but I didn't know how I was going to write this and how to put out my feelings... I'm breaking and falling apart.. yesterday at school I just broke down crying cause everything just came rushing out and I've just been so stressed, overwhelmed, falling apart.. trying to juggle homework and finding the time to study has been so hard.. I had a night class yesterday and it was so hard to concentrate and afterwards I just cried on my way home... I just broke down and I'm just so done with everything... I don't want to be here anymore.. I feel like I've hit rock bottom and can't get up anymore... I had a test today and it was so hard to concentrate and focus on it.. I just feel so much pain and I want to cut so bad.. today in class we sat in a circle talking about where we are in life and how we are feeling and that just made things worse.. I just feel so traped inside and just screaming out but no one hears the pains of the screams  in the darkness... I don't feel horrible, I feel pain and suffocation.. 

Moo0290
Moo0290
I know so many people must have said this to you, but you will get through it. I found school/college as some of the hardest times for me. Its a time where you are pressured into planning the rest of your life, you are tested and judged. Friends come and go, love is a new rollercoaster. You will start to learn about yourself, and define who you are. Its hard to see past it all at the moment, and I know everything just feels so hard to get through. But you WILL come out the other side, and you will be amazed and proud of yourself.
Your life isn't set, you can change it however you want to. Now does not define your future, so don't let it overwhelm you.
I have been there, I wanted to give up. But I made it through and I am here living a life that I have worked for.
Reading your post was like seeing all that I felt in words. I get that pain, that darkness so I know you can get through it too. Stay strong!
Minidogs2
Minidogs2
I have been there. Sorry you are suffering so badly. Take hope from someone else that you can get through this. But don't keep to yourself. Keep posting and find a good therapist to help you. Journal the specific feelings and thoughts tied to them to explain exactly why you feel that you're suffocating. Journal just for yourself for post for feedback but the feelings and thoughts need to be expressed in a safe place.
Angel93
Angel93
Thank you both for your advice.. right now I just see a whole lot of darkness around me and it feels like their is no air and it seems I can no longer escape it's grasp on me.. I do write in journals.. I have one for my daily life and the other one I have is for this kind of stuff.. and the emotions that are built up.. I haven't written in it awhile though.. I feel like I'm always in a battlefield..
livebrilliantly
livebrilliantly
I'm so sorry you're struggling right now but please keep in mind you are NOT ALONE. There are so many people who gone through this and are still going through it. I would probably be best to talk to a counselor or a doctor about this. Keeping it inside will only hurt worse. Lots of prayers for you and you WILL GET THROUGH THIS!! <3 Here's a link that might help you: optionline.org
Angel93
Angel93
livebrilliantly- Thank you.. I know I should keep that in mind but honestly that's so hard when your the only one and not anyone else around you understands.. like when I'm at school, I feel so isolated and alone because I'm here struggling a long in the darkness while everyone else is moving forward...