Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Magwayen 10/05/2018

I need my mind to match my heart.

My heart is happy, broken but happy. My heart loves life. My heart believes there is good in everything and everyone. My heart sees the rainbow in the leaves when they change colours in autumn. My heart has so much love to give, it feels like it might break or burst from the overload of love that I keep contained. My heart wants to dance in the rain whenever the sky starts pouring. My heart constantly wants to smiles.

My heart is happy, broken but happy.

My mind is a different story. My mind thinks about the easiest, painless and fastest way to end my life. My mind is so exhausted, it wants to stop breathing. My mind is angry and sad and confused. My mind has soo much hate. Hate towards others, but especially hate towards myself. My mind want to jump in front of every speeding truck, in front of every moving train and off every high story floor balcony. My mind wants to rip my hair out of my head. My mind refuses to help me get out of bed. My mind is riddled with anxiety, paralyzing anxiety. My mind replays every trauma I’ve lived, like a broken record. My mind fights my will to live. My mind sees the darkness in everything. My mind makes me believe I am worthless. My mind makes me feel helpless. My mind decides that it is best for me to be dead. My mind is angry at those who cannot understand me. My mind Envy those who don’t suffer every day the way I do. My mind is jealous. My mind is spiteful. My mind is devastated. My mind is exhausted.

My mind is exhausting.

I need my mind to match my heart.

I need my heart to win this battle.

looney1 10/05/2018

That does sound like a lot to battle each day. Are you seeing a health professional to help you deal? Hope you can find your answer soon.

Bullseye78 10/05/2018

Hey Magwayen & looney1! I completely sympathize with the 2 of you because it sounds like you just wrote poetry regarding my life and what's in my head on a daily basis. I just got surgery today on my hand and I was hoping I didn't even wake up from the procedure. I was hoping something woulda went wrong. I'm just sick of living like this. I'd just had a little tiff or whatever u wanna call it, with my husband. He just doesn't get it, he doesn't understand. He tells me he gets it and understands, bullshit!! Unless you live it everyday, unless you've been through it, or going through all the obstacles, ups & downs, pills, doctors, hospital visits, suicidality bullshit for 20 years, like I have, you will never understand. I have a lot of love inside of me also! I love deeply, I love hard, my love is genuine. I'm extremely loyal and selfless but when you have people around you that don't have a clue to what you're dealing with. They only feel that you're depressed rubs off on them sometimes, you're not as easy to deal with, or you're not so pleasant to be around all the time, blah blah blah. To us, this is normal signs of depression.

I don't know. I don't even give a fuck anymore honestly. I just wanna feel better, I really do. I want us all to feel better and live a somewhat "normal" life, whatever the fuck "normal" means. I'm not even sure if exists these days. Everyone has got some shit they're dealing with. But gals and guys, you're not alone. We are all battling this, together.

Stay strong people. I hope something put a smile on your face today. Many hugs!! Mel

ellectd14 10/07/2018

You can do it love <3 I understand what your going through. I truly believe your heart will win. That's the strongest part of you. I believe in you and I'm always here for you, hugs!

cleftic 10/09/2018

you can pull through this and i hope this phase pf our lives will pass..... http://mp3cwitch.com.ng

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