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Today's my birthday; reached the big 5-0! Woopppeee; right? Wrong - DEAD WRONG! Either I must be the world's most ungrateful asshole or I just don't get it all...Everyone says I should be celebrating & although I realize a lot don't reach this 'milestone', it doesn't relieve me of my misery and in fact, it makes me feel even more guilt that I don't 'appreciate' this day...I really wish I never woke up today!
MorganBlack
Happy Birthday! As happy as it can be. Finding happy moments can be difficult. All the same, I do hope you find a single moment today that gives you pause for happiness.
bigtimefun
it is ok...birthdays are something to everyone....some enjoy others dread....but Fifty is a major milestone...
lighttheway
Happy birthday! try to do something special for yourself.All feelings are normal.so its okay to feel whatever your feeling...I hope you can find some happy moments today.even if its something small that u can enjoy.....
johnhascats
I think what you're feeling is not all that unusual; when I turned fifty a few years ago I felt the same, "Who cares?" attitude. I wasn't depressed about turning 50, but it just wasn't all that exciting. Actually, turning 51 was worse for me. But in the last couple of years I decided I was either going to have to settle for being miserable, or turn inward and find a reason or reasons to get excited about my second half of life. And while it took some serious searching, I think I have found reasons. Also, I came to the realization that my first half of life went a lot faster than I thought it would, so if I don't want the second half to be a total waste I better get living. That was a huge motivator for me. But, happy birthday, your life is your life for a reason and I hope maybe through some personal searching on your own you'll find a reason or reasons to see the next ten years as an opportunity for excitement.
cedarbrooke
Happy Birthday, it is a special day, we are all here for some reason. Do something nice for yourself or even for someone else if it makes you feel better. Hugs!
ThePepperMan
After a while they all seem the same, and to a certain extent they are just like any other day. My 63rd is coming up next month. I will have fun, hopefully the family will be able to come. And then it is on to waiting for the 64th one.
RiS
Happy birthday! I turned 60 this year so wish I could get 50 back!
mollgirl
Happy Birthday! I get you it is just a number. Try to be kind to yourself.
muskrattiger
depreshion has a way of robing you of any ......apreaceat ion and any good feelings ...you schould have .......it is a thief .........I don't think you be so hard on your self ....it is the depreshion and not you ...who is ungreatfull ......you just can't feel it because of the depreshion ......depreshion is all about negative emotions and has no room for positive emotions ......................happy birthday .........take care ...God bless
mal66
Thanks for the replies; the b-day ended up being just another day on the calendar with 50 being just a chronological milestone. No pause for celebration but reflection on where I've been, where I am, and where (or if) I want to be in the future...
LivingWater
I remember my 50th birthday. I was alone. :Probably menopause is contributing to your sadness and self-condemnation. There is light at the end of the tunnel. It gets better.
mal66
LivingWater: I am not female (no menopause)...
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