I am the same way, but you just have to bite your lip and listen. Even when you want to run you have to tell yourself... Hey they might actually help me.

Its easier to be alone, but its also very lonely. if you ever want to talk... I'm here

IDK...i have the opposite problem....I do think I deserve friends/friendships but everytime I reach out to them and try to befriend someone they always seem to run away from me. Some stick around for awhile, then ditch me....while others I just start to get to know and then ditch me quickly.

I wish I knew how to help us both, but I just don;'t. I do wish you the best and I hope you can find the help you are looking for.

~R~

I run because of a very bad distrust in people. Mainly stemming from the fact that i can't accept that people like me and don't want anything from me. I have interactions, then pull away when i realize that the like me, and I figure they will not like me when they get to know me.

Its tough to make friends. Or at least, I find it hard to make friends. I isolate myself terribly. And I get irritated with the mundane things that people seem to be able to talk about ad naseum - like the weather and how long they had to wait for the train, etc... I would much rather talk about meaningful things. But my therapist is trying to get me to understand the importance of "small talk". By which people discover whether or not they'd like to be friends. So my advice is to take things slowly. And keep things light. Save the "opening up" for later (or for your therapist).

Please be gentle with yourself. (((HUG)))