I couple of months ago I thought I'd never be were I'm at emotionally today. Back then I was still overcoming the worst breakup I ever felt in my life. It felt like death. Today I am trying to settle into life with Roomie. I still dont know what I am to him. I think just company but that's ok. This man has proven himself so far. He took me in after the bad breakup, he supported me as best he could emotionally and he will help me recover after my surgury. He even offered to pay for my portion insurance wont cover. He took care of my cat while I figured things out. Sometimes we have it all in front of us and we dont see it. We just have to learn to accept each others faults even if we dont always agree or our views are different.
If your going thru a hard time right now, I've been there. We drown in our sorrows and emotions and find it hard to climb out. The best thing I can say from my own experience is...start with the small things to be joyful about. I remember one day as I was laying in bed after sleeping all day, I opened my eyes and said to myself, "I feel joy that I have this comfortable bed." I know this sounds dumb but...I had to start with small things. Next I was saying" I have my cat that loves me unconditionally", then "I have my plants that I can pour my care into". Now its "I have a roof over my head and a good friend that cares about my well being". Sometimes breakups happen for reasons we dont understand. In most cases, it's always for the better. It's hard to see it that way in the beginning but in the end it's most always likely true.
I had to start out small because my mindset was so negative at the time. I am looking forward to my surgury and already planning on starting to run again. I've always wanted to do 5k and 10ks. So I will have that carrot to look forward to.
I am looking forward to the new year as I think we all are. 2020 has been a doozy.
To all...have a lovely positive day and remember the small joys in life ;)
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