been in hospital for 8 days was discharged today. they weren't going to let me out until my psychologist got back from holidays. i had a really bad week where 4 major things happened together. i just dont have that much coping left in me. i dont have enough coping even to go to work normally. i took myself off to the hospital andadmitted myself to the psych ward because i really wanted to take a whole lot of sedatives and sleep for a week. i tend to want to do that when im not coping. i dont know what else to do and i hate myself for it. i watched mum do that my whole life and i hated her for doing it but now im the same. a lot of self loathing going on here at the moment.
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