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At the end of my rope

SeekingKnowledge
SeekingKnowledge
Please help me. I feel like I'm hanging by a thread, and don't know how much more I can take. I just want to run and keep running and not look back. I just can't do this anymore. I feel like there's no hope. Having a VERY hard day with work. Looks like I might end up losing 2 deals that were suppose to close this week....all because of stupidity, and things beyond my control. I've had a day from hell. I call up my b/f, he has the afternoon off, and tell him what's going on with me, and he's like....sorry to hear you're having a bad day....gonna finish my soup and take a nap. It hurt so much. I want to be there for him, yet he won't let me in, he says he's trying, yet he won't let me in. I'm hurting, and I feel so alone, and can;t get any support from him....I know he's going through his own stuff, but GOD I can't even get any compassion from him, when I feel like I just give up on life. I'm a bundle of nerves, and right now, don't know how I'm going to make my bills this month. I have 2 kids to support, and I can't even do that. I have no one, nothing, a grown woman who can't even handle things. I just want to give up
starfish
starfish
Don't give up!!! You are having a tough time right now, that's all. Take a step back, and write it all down - what your troubles are right now - business deals, depression, boy friend, etc. and write down all the solutions you can think of for each one, and then prioritize what needs attention first. This will help you organize your thoughts and be more able to do something about it. Hope it helps!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I remember what that feels like. It must be very difficult. I used to tell people that I was hanging by a thread but I was glad that thread was fishing line. I can hear the hurt and anxiety in your post. The only thing that I can say is Breathe. Take two minutes and do nothing but breathe. No bills, no b/f, no kids, no work. Just you and your breath. I wish you peace. We are always here for you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Are you on any meds?
BeckyK
BeckyK
Please don't give up!!! Take things one step at a time, things will turn around.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Oh, I so know how you about giving up. I totally sucks that money rules the world. But try to think about the fact that no money in the world can replace the mother you are to your children. I don't have kids, but my father is very depressed and all I ever think about is how much I would miss him if he were to give up. I know that you want to support your boyfriend, but it sounds like you need the support right now. I am here if you want to talk. hugs
deleted_user
deleted_user
Oh, I so know how you about giving up. I totally sucks that money rules the world. But try to think about the fact that no money in the world can replace the mother you are to your children. I don't have kids, but my father is very depressed and all I ever think about is how much I would miss him if he were to give up. I know that you want to support your boyfriend, but it sounds like you need the support right now. I am here if you want to talk. hugs
SeekingKnowledge
SeekingKnowledge
I just want to feel loved. You know that feeling when your heart skips a beat when you see that person you love? I'm so angry. I feel like I give and give, and get nothing in return. I have so much love to give, why can't it be reciprocated? I feel like such an awful person that no one can love me for ME. I'm always the one there, but no one is ever there for me. Why is that?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Don't give up. I have been where you are and still am - we have to learn to take each day one day at a time. Its not easy and anyone that tells you is, is full of you know what. Having someone to talk to is very important and this place really helps, but if you need a personal friend that will help you as much as she can I am here for you. We all have bad days just know that tomorrow is a new one and it has to get better ( you just have to believe it) Send me a message and we can get through this together!
SeekingKnowledge
SeekingKnowledge
I don't know what to do. I'm really bothered that he couldn't comfort me, and just dismissed me. I know it's the depression, but for me, even though I'm depressed, I'm always there no matter what I'm going through or feeling. Why can't he?
deleted_user
deleted_user
It first of all sounds like --oh boy I am gonna get a little deep here--you are letting his behaviour towards you validate your negative beliefs about yourself. But, remember, YOU CHOSE HIM. There are many men who could give you all the affection you could handle. Just remember that.

I don't know why I keep picturing this. But there ARE just some people who are like your boyfriend. You call up and say "Mom is dead" they say "I am so sorry, if you don't mind I think I'll finish my soup and take a nap now." There are people like that. You deserved more today. You deserve more tomorrow. You deserve much much more in the years ahead. Here is to YOU.