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At the end of my rope

charmingdisaster
charmingdisaster
I know that I am not on here much. I have been working a lot. My depression has gotten so bad lately. I barely have motivation to do my job. As bad as it is, my relationship status of being single really affects me too. I would really like to have someone in my life. Being alone all the time sucks. Every boyfriend I have had has hurt me. I have a hard time trusting men after all that I've been through. I have had exes use me,rape me and abuse me since I started dating at age 15. I'm a recovering drug addict and all this pain drives me to want to use again. I wish I at least had friends. I'm completely alone and I can't take this much longer. I've been told I need to focus on me and spoil myself but I see no reason to do that. I don't deserve it and I wouldn't even know where to start with that. Sorry if I'm rambling, I have a lot on my mind.
Obeylix
Obeylix
I would say someone who has been a victim of abuse, recovered from drug addiction and has the strength to reach out has certainly earned the right for a little pampering.
It can be hard to find value in yourself but it is there.
If you don't mind me asking, how did you summon the strength to quit drugs? If you had that strength once, you can use it again.

hugguns
charmingdisaster
charmingdisaster
It took me two trips to rehab and meetings afterwards but I stayed away from it. It was hard but I got through it. Thank you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Just look at you. You've already risen above more hardship than most people see in a lifetime. You should be proud of that fact. Don't think of yourself as an recovering addict, think of you as I think of you.... a young survivor, with way more potential than she even realizes.

Smile, it will make everyone wonder what you're up to. ;-)

Hugs,
~theGuardian
charmingdisaster
charmingdisaster
Thank you. That comment really made me feel better. I have always been ashamed of my former drug problem. I know I had been through a lot but I didn't handle it in the best way either. I will try to smile more. =)