>>i feel like i just want to run away from everything and everyone

As you can guess, that is not possible. Have you sought medical care? Medication is an answer for most people in your situation ... along with other therapies.

ive had councilling previously and i'm currently on meds. the meds are working,its just that people around me are making me feel so down and worse about myself at the moment.i try talking to them but its like they dont even want to know anymore but i care about them so much

I think a lot of people, even the ones who are closest to us, just can't get a true concept of what this disease is like. So they don't think of it the same way we do, and as much as they want to, they can't empathize.

This isn't their fault. It's just that on the outside, we look normal. People have a hard time recognizing something they can't see. Comments like "get over it" or "you're just making yourself sad" are common because that's what it looks like we're doing, no matter how hard we're fighting on the inside.

If you can, tell them they're hurting you with their comments. Nobody has any right ot make you feel bad about fighting a disease, and if they keep it up after you've explained what you're going through, they're fuckbags, in my opinion.

The people who really do care about you will at least want to understand, but they probably never will. They can only understand as well as you can explain, and this is a bitch of a thing to try and explain.

I don't really know what to tell you, except that here you can count on people understanding what you're talking about, which can be HUGE when nobody in real life gets it.

Hugs, and I hope that you find peace

i think that our children often cause us guilt about thoughts of leaving this world. they are good for that, guilt!

you are not alone. life gets so overwhelming. sounds like you could sure use a break from your friends. especially when you're smack dab in the middle of it, it's so hard to see any options. i hope you can get a break soon. gentle hugs.