wish i could hun, but my chat dont work, i can talk her if youd like.

sure..that works too.

whats up then? im more of a listener than a talker, just as a note

If you fancy a chat, feel free to send a request or a message, im here for you.

Okay, so. I really don't know where to start.
Earlier, I started thinking about all that I'm trying to deal with at the same time. And it got to the point where I just wanted to go rock in a corner because it seems like to much. And all I really wanted was to spill it on someone else; to have someone else hear me and what exactly I'm trying to juggle. And I'd rather talk to someone in person, rather than online; even see them face to face, but I can't see it happening at 4 in the AM. I even considered calling a suicide hotline. Not because I'm suicidal or anything, mind you, but just because even hearing someone's voice and talking to them.. I don't know. I just wanted someone to talk to. But anyway. So I didn't. And now I'm here. And well. I don't know. There's just so much going on that I don't know what to do.

I'm trying to catch up on school work (again), I'm trying to fight my depression which makes it hard to even get out of bed in the morning. I'm trying to be a better person...pfft. yeah, right. I dropped out of my high school to go back to cyber school, then I dropped out of the one thing I love: band. And I just feel like a failure.

Everyday I find that something makes me want to cut, or burn, or something.

Yes, I have a cutting addiction.

That NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT.

And sometimes I wish I could just tell someone outside of DS. But I can't.
And, I just feel hopeless, and inferior, and...like a failure.

And..I don't know what to do.

I wonder if perhaps you could find a cutting hotline?

If you fancy trying a hotline, message me and i will find the best hotline for you in your area

ugh, i meant Self-Injury hotline

I've looked for them.
The only hotlines I can find are for suicide (which I'm not), rape (which I haven't been), and police (Which I don't need).

heres one!

1-800-DONT-CUT

I can search the hotlines database, it is very useful, there are general support hotlines too, they help with anything

Really? It's that simple?

But um.. oh..
Have I mentioned my fear of calling hotlines...
>_<
I guess I should have.

I want to call...but I don't want anyone in the house to hear me..
And I had a bad experience with a hotline once..
and so.. I don't really like calling them unless I REALLY have to.
And there's only been one time I REALLY had to.
And it wasn't even for me.
so yeah.
Um..
>_