Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

I'm sorry to hear that your best friend is no longer in your life. You are entitled to feel sad and sorrow. It is a loss. Allow yourself time to grieve for the loss. I wish I had an answer for you because if I did, I would be able to help myself go through the period of disgust that I am feeling right now.
Just know that you are not alone and, eventually, you will feel better but, in the meantime, the emotional pain will make it seem unbearable.
should ever you need a caring ear feel free to reach out, i will listen