It all depends on the circumstances and if my depression is making me see something that's not there (IE: no support when in actuality there is support).

If, in reality, the person(s) who are closest to me are really not being supportive, I close off to them and generally the relationship goes by the wayside and I look for people who will give to me as I do when they need me.

Thanks for the comment, Its my brothers and sisters whose support I REALLY need but I have a feeling I am going to distance myself from now.
I am taking care of my elderly mother when I am having a hard time taking care of myself at the moment and they are making things harder for me when they could be helping more.

i go back to old friends, actually... main thing, is to leave the people and environment youre in. mainly an online thing though, since i dont quit my job or walk on my lease... but it seems to work out okay online.

This doesn't seem like a rant (yet?)

I am not sure there is enough information about your situation to really help you that much. Can you share abit more without becoming too vulnerable?

Your wrote: they are making things harder for me when they could be helping more.

Have you discussed this with them. Have you found a way to tell them effectively what they can do to help both you and your mother?

hi Chris. i know a little about your situation and that you are taking care of your eldely Mother and that is a hard thing to do.if your family isn't helping you out you really need to sit down with them {if you can} and tell them just exactly how you are feeling and i have been there in your shoes with both my Mom and Dad and its a heavy thing to bare.

tell them you need help. you have to remember to take care of you too.maybe you can get a service to come in and help you if your family won't.
big hugs to you and i am here if you need me okay!!!

Chris, Im so very sorry you are going thru this alone, its just not fair. I hope your other family members will pitch in soon.
Your in my thoughts hon. love and hugs lexi

Sorry you are having to deal with this.....would it be possible for you to call a family conference, when you can all sit together and work out an easier way for all concerned?

Just a thought......


Hugs
xx

Find people who understand. They are out there. ...many times it won't be your family or "friends".

we find support in interesting places sometimes. Keep your mind open.

peace.

thanks all for the comments, getting some support here was kind of nice

What's very sad is that sometimes, more often than not, the people closest to us are the ones that understand the least. It hurts, for sure.

I hope you can find some friends who can empathize with you.